Harry Styles Imagines & One Shots 💓

Won't give up on us

I bit my lips, trying to hold back the tears that's threatening to fall as I signed my name on the bottom of the note I've spent hours writing. It wasn't easy and I threw away at least 5 drafts that failed to explain exactly how I'm feeling.

I glanced again at the final copy of letter in front of me.

Dear Harry,

You might've already guessed what I'm about to say to you by how distant I've been these few days... I'm sorry, Harry. I'm sorry I'm too much of a coward to face you and instead, writing you this letter. 

I'm sorry I'm such an idiot even though you told me countless times not to listen to the hate. But you see Harry, I deserve the hate. All of them are true, H. True by how I don't deserve you, how you're capable of so much better than me....

Truth is, I really don't wanna drag you down any longer, I really don't want you to be stuck with a plain, normal girl like me when you could be dating someone much better, someone... more of your league.

I'm sorry I'm so weak, I'm sorry I can't handle the pressure of being your girlfriend, even though that has been the best part of my life. Call me cliche, but it's not you, it's me. All me.

 I think we need some time apart from each other. I know it might be painful, but I truly believe it's for the best.

No matter what happens H, I'll always love you but even you know that doesn't solve everything sometimes.

(Your initial)    xx

I nodded my head in resolute one last time before placing it on the coffee table where Harry's sure to see when he gets back. I gently shut the door behind me as I stepped out with my luggage by my side, for the last time.

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2 weeks have past since I left Harry but time heals slow. My heart still aches for him, even though I convinced myself that me leaving was for the best. I was back in my house, the one I used to live in before moving in with him when, attempting to settle down by watching TV but my heart was elsewhere.

I heard a knock on my front door and went numbly to go open it. I couldn't be bothered checking first because I'm already dead inside. Serial killer? Welcome inside.

But it was not someone standing on my doorstep wanting to end my life, it was Harry.

My heartbeat quickened instinctively, overlapping the throbbing pain of heartbreak. The butterflies which I thought were dead inside me came back to live in my tummy.

I really wanted to slam the door shut and take a moment to compose myself before I break down like a weakling that I am, but Harry seemed to expect that, as he immediately spoke up with his hands extended.

"Wait! Hear me out before you shut the door, Y/N!" I winced at his raspy voice, even croakier than usual and knew immediately that he wasn't much better than me.

"Please!" Harry begged as I stared through him like he wasn't even there. I stopped and listened.

"Y/N, babe... God, I miss you like hell!" He ran his fingers through his hair miserably. 

"Y/N please, we both know you're being silly when you said you're dragging me down when all you've ever done was making me the happiest person alive. You're not plain and normal, Y/N Goddammit! You're so fucking special, so precious to me and yet you think so lowly of yourself."

"I'm the one if anyone should be apologizing for not making you see how important you are to me, darling. I-" Harry looked like he's about to pour his heart and soul into this long speech, but he paused and thought better about it.

I hear him mutter to himself frustratedly: "Goddamit Harry, stick to the plan, stick to the plan!"

He suddenly picked up his guitar that's been hung across his shoulder this whole time and started strumming, looking at me dead in the eyes as he sang:

When I look into your eyes
It's like watching the night skies
Or a beautiful sunrise
There's so much they hold
And just like them old stars
I see that you've come so far
To be right where you are
How old is your soul?

I won't give up on us, even if the skies get rough
I'm giving you all my love, I'm still looking up

And when you're needing your space, to do some navigating
I'll be here patiently waiting, to see what you find

'Cause even the stars they burn
Some even fall to the earth
We've got a lot to learn
God knows we're worth it
No, I won't give up

It was Jason Mraz and I was crying buckets as he finished the rest of the song. He reassured me gently: "I know you need some time, babe. I won't give up on us, Y/N, never ever in a million years. I'll fight for this relationship because I know you're the one for me, no one else."

"We all got to learn what we got, what we're not and who we are, and I respect your decision towards your journey in finding them. I'll wait for you for as long as you need, I just need you to know that I'm right here, by your side if you need me." 

He smiled at me lovingly, even though I could see through him and I knew that he's breaking inside.

I couldn't take this anymore, I knew that I was right. Time apart from each other is just what we need, not because we don't love each other anymore, instead it helped me realize how I can't live without him.

I ran to him and hugged him tight, wetting his tee as I clung onto him tightly. He breathed me in gratefully, and I could feel small drops of tears leaking from his eyes.

"You have no idea how much I missed you." He mumbled.

"I'm s-s-sorry, Harry... I love you s-so much." I choked on my words as I was still bawling.

"As do I, sweetheart." He brushed through my hair soothingly and placed a kiss on top of my head.

"I can give you more time, baby. I'm not here to rush you into anything, I just wanted to let you know that I'm always here for you." Harry assured me gently and I quickly shook my head.

"No Harry, I need you now. I realize that being apart isn't the greatest idea I've ever came up off. My heart aches without you." I bit my lips as I confessed.

"Mine too..." Harry murmured in my ears. "Start over?" 

I shook my head. "We're not starting over, Harry. We're continuing where we left off." I smiled tentatively and he crushed his lips against mine eagerly.