Cause and Effect

Part 5

Chapter 5

~Elizabeth~

I laid flat on my back and stared up at my white ceiling. My mind was still on a rampage from last night and I hadn't gotten much sleep. When we had gotten home, Brent had fallen asleep and Jake had taken her to her room- sleeping next to her in her bed. While I normally would have thought that was odd and immediately bombarded her with questions the next morning, I didn't. I simply went to class in a daze of sleepiness and fear.

Fear that I was going to see the man from last night.

Fear that he would try to take me again.

Plain and simple fear.

After school, I went home without eating, laid down on my bed, and here I am. Everybody was in the other room, celebrating for Daniel, but I said I wasn't feeling well. Nobody believed me; in fact Brent called total bullshit on it, and started freaking out. She, and what we like to call her inner Hulk, started cursing the man from last night high and low.

A sailor would have covered his ears and run from the raging girl.

Hearing the soft opening of my door, I readied myself for whatever Brent had to say, but was pleased to find that it was Lilly. She came over and laid down next to me, staring up at the ceiling. She reached down for my hand and I suddenly couldn't hold the water works inside anymore. Lilly pulled me to her and my sobs were quiet like the rest of me.

"It's okay. I know. He won't get in, I promise you; Hulk would kill him." she said and I laughed a weak laugh. And she did understand; when she was very young, her step father had raped her until her mother found out and kicked the sugar daddy out. There were reasons her father was so protective and thorough.

"I hate crying. I hate looking weak. I'm not weak. Everybody thinks I'm weak, but I'm not! I can take care of myself." I grumbled the last part, tired of everybody treating me like the doll I resemble.

"Elizabeth, you are the strongest of us all." I looked up in surprise and she nodded. "Brent is strong and tough, but she doesn't let anybody in. She got hurt to the point where she just gave up on everybody. Daniel is simply crazy and can't let anybody talk without thinking they have an alter motive. Ally thinks she can bitch anybody out, even if it's a compliment. I think she does it on purpose- it's actually funny. And me... I don't see any wrong in the world. I know that I should, but I don't. But you, you Ell, are amazing. You're tough and strong, but you aren't afraid of letting people have your heart. That takes more coursge than decking somebody. Don't let this one thing get you down, I'd hate to have to pull you back up." I thought about her words for a long while. She had correct descriptions of all of our friends but I had never actually given that much thought into how their personalities affected me.

I was done sulking.

I was going to get my white ass up and go get a drink.

But I was going to shower first because I smelled like satan took a shit on me.

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A/N: Okay, so how do you guys like the change in perspective? I really like it, but don't just want my own opinion. Please leave your comment so i can know what to do differantly next time.

By the way, if these characters were based on people in our group, who do you think would be who? *puts on thinking face...*

-Kelly