Locked Away

character q&a 1

hakyeon

—do you ever regret letting taekwoon go?

honestly, i don't. he cheated on me twice within a couple of days with my best friend. we hadn't even been together for a year and he did that. i could see myself getting hurt again if i stayed with him. to be honest i felt guilty when i first heard that he had killed himself because of me. i blamed myself and more than anything i wished that i could go back and forgive him. but that would not have been the best thing to do for my future. wow, i'm so self centred.

—hakyeon, are you better now?

yes i am much better. it took me a while to convince myself that taekwoon's death wasn't my fault but once i did, my life started to become good once more.

—how's living in europe?

europe is actually a really nice place to be living in. the people here are really kind and have welcomed me nicely. i moves two months later than i'd planned as i stayed back in korea for a bit after taekwoon died. i couldn't bring myself to leave after the main reason which i was leaving had died.

—you ARE visiting yuta, jaehyun and hongbin too right?

yes i am do not worry. maybe not as often as i promised or would like to but i have been living in europe for a year now and i have been back to korea three times in total i believe. trust me, yuta and hongbin are giving me a lot of crap for the non-existent visits.

—hakyeon, my beautiful firefly, i am so sorry for your loss. did you keep taekwoon's note? his things?

thank you~ i keep the note in a book which i have read at least twenty times. that way it will be a constant reminder of what has happened. i have promised myself that i will not forget about taekwoon and all that has happened. but you can't tell hongbin. he believes that i threw it out. he doesn't think it healthy for me to be holding onto it.

—have you forgiven wonshik?

i feel as though i never will forgive wonshik. he knew that his best friend was dating his ex yet he still slept with him twice and hid it from the friend. i have hardly spoken to him since and i've deleted his number. i heard about what happened with him and jaehwan and i feel like an awful person for saying this but he kind of deserved it after everything...

—hakyeonnieee~ are you feeling better now?

i am feeling much better. being in a foreign environment has really helped me to feel better about everything that has happened~

taekwoon

—i have so many questions for you...did you ever move on from your little brother's death?
completely?

honestly no. everyday i would always think of him. what my mother did was so wrong and i wish she was up here baring the consequences for her actions. yet it relieves me now be with him again and actually see him whereas i could not do that before.

—why did you cheat with wonshik that first time?

i don't know how to explain...it's a bit complicated. wonshik is really good at manipulating people. unfortunately i was one of his victims and in the worst way possible. he pulled on all of the strings which i had broken when i lorikeets up with him. he also tampered with my emotions but saying that hakyeon would do the same to me. at the end of the day what i did was wrong and i will forever regret what i did.

—i get it...you were in a lot of emotional pain...but why did you decide to just...give up?

i believed that if hakyeon couldn't forgive me then maybe no one would. hakyeon is a very forgiving person that is one of the main reasons as to why i fell for him. besides, if i cheated on him that easily than who's to say that i won't do the same to someone else? i didn't want to live my life like that