I choose You

Chapter 15

Beam POV

I couldn't sleep well last night. I was thinking about Forth. He acted strange. When he opened the door, I thought that he would directly hug and kiss me. Yet, He just asked me a simple question and walked into his room. I even brought him Tom Yum, but he refused to eat. Luckily, he gave a simple goodbye kiss on my nose before going to Chang Mai, although I'm not sure he was already okay or not.

I understand that he might be angry because I went out with my classmate without prior notice, but why should I? I'm not a prisoner who should report any matters to him whenever do something or go somewhere. Actually, I didn't do anything weird with my friends. One of my classmates needed my help. He was chasing after a girl, and he wanted his friends' advise. I, as a good friend, I shouldn't have refused to help, right?

Now, since Forth isn't with me, I spend my day playing with Pha and Kit at Kit's dorm. That's it. I'm not in mood to go anywhere.

I miss Forth already.

I had to endure my will to see him when I had exams, or just called him to ask his condition. But, my ego always said I shouldn't have. I was afraid Forth would beg to see me until I couldn't refuse. Surprisingly, during my hectic days, Forth only texted me a few times a day. It was only to remain me to eat and to not sleep at midnight. He was really considerate. That was why I came to his dorm right after going out with my friends. I even planned to stay a night at his room as a compensation of our two-week 'separation'. Nonetheless, it didn't go as my plan.

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It's already three days since Forth went to Chang Mai. He neither calls nor text me.

Are you still angry with me, Forth?

I really want to call him, but I realize that he is still in mourning after his grandma's death. Maybe he is busy with the procession, I guess.

I have lost my appetite. I only ate instant noodle this morning, and bread for my dinner last night.

I'm not hungry.

This afternoon, I decide to buy some soft drinks and chips. Accidentally I meet Sharp, Forth's close friend at seven-eleven. He brings a plastics bag which fulls of beer cans. Typical engineering kids.   

"Oi Beam. How are you doing?" He hits my shoulder as soon as he sees me.

"Not bad,"

Lie. My days have been worse since your friend left.

"Oh.... Has Forth called you? I called him this morning. He said the funeral will end in next two days." Sharp explains.

"Nope. Maybe he is busy?!" I answer with no cheerful tone.

Sharp gives me I-don't-believe-it look.

"Seriously, no way he is busy. When I called, he even complained that he feels 'bored' because his family members are acting. You know, his mother's family is rich, and it is all about the wealth discussion there. Forth is ready to escape, but his mother and P'Faying asked him to stay until the procession is done. By the way, why isn't he calling you yet? Are you guys fighting? Usually, he was the one who love nagging all day because he couldn't call you or you didn't reply his message. Especially these past two weeks. Oh my God... Don't you know I was so frustrated because Forth became so grumpy since he missed you so much. Yet, he said he didn't want to disturb your study time..........."

Sharp talks without end, but I'm not complaining since it's all about Forth. Sharp tells me how Forth was super happy when I accepted his confession, then when my brother gave his permission to date me.

Damn.... It makes me miss him more

I just realize how Forth really treasures me as his lover. He is hardly angry with me. Usually, he only remained silent for few minutes, then we were good again.

Yet this time, I think he is 100% angry. He doesn't call me even though he has time to have call with Sharp.

I say goodbye to Sharp, and go back to my room. I throw the plastic back on the table, and I throw myself to the bed.

When will he go back to Bangkok? in four days? five?

SHIT. I can't stand it anymore.

Forth POV

7 P.M

I sit at the back with boring expression, looking at some relatives who are still busily talking about money and some family properties.

Damn.. can't they talk about it later after the cremation ceremony?

I tried to escape last night, but my mom stopped me as well as P'Faying. My mom, with red eyes because she cried to much, said if I love her, I must stay here.

How can I still escape after seeing my mom in that condition?

So, here I'm again.

I'm bored and frustrated. I haven't called Beam even though I miss him so much. I shouldn't have been angry. Arrggghhh..... I regret it. I will make up with him as soon as I go back to Bangkok. 

I wish I could see him right now.

"Don't you want to eat something, Forth? I saw you didn't touch your meal this afternoon," P'Faying sits beside me.

"I'm already full listening to money talk," I smirk. P'Faying shakes her head, and sighs.

"Grandma must be sad. Only your mom who feel the lost. I can't believe they are like this in the funeral,"

"Funny, huh?" I laugh coldly. Some people glare at me, so I glare at them back.

What? I can't laugh, but you guys can talk about money here? Ridiculous.

P'Faying taps my shoulder to give warning.

"By the way P, how is P'Ram?" I innocently ask.

"I don't know. Hei.. Why are you questioning me instead of your Beam? He is the brother,"

"You do understand my question, P. So.... You don't want to share the progress, do you?

"No progress, Forth. That guy is a jerk as you know. Cut it off. I don't want to talk about him right now, Nong. ." P'Faying hissed. Then, she gets up and walk outside. I hear she stop her steps for few seconds before walking out to the front yard. I feel someone take the seat beside me. I turn my head, then I see someone whom I miss this past three days.

Beam is here.

Beside me.

In my grandma's house.

In Chiang Mai.

                        to be continued