Behind the Pain

London- Pt 2

As much as the night dragged on we are finally heading back home to America where I can see my sons. This week has been really hard for me, since we are in Europe I couldnt bring my medication over so this whole week I havent been able to take anything to help with my tiredness I just had to pull through without my medication which was extremely difficult, But thankfully Marshall was very considerate and generally kind, he has been checking up on me constantly and offering me time of just so I can have a rest, but as kind as he is I dont want him to think I am not capable of doing my job so in this case work comes first and if I can help it my tiredness isnt going to compromise my ability to do my job.

We soon got comfortable on the plane, there was Me, Royce, Tracey, Paul, Katherine Marshall's stylist, Mr Porter and a few other people that worked for Marshall and Shady Records on the Jet ready to get back to America. The jet was amazing inside and I could defiantly tell that Marshall splashed a few massive bucks to make the interior to look this good.

At the start of the trip we all sat around and talked for a while but as the trip went on and the conversation topics became more boring and pointless we all started to scatter around the plane and do our own things, like Marshall, Royce, Mr Porter and Paul all took a seat on these two lounges that faced each other down at the back of the jet and started playing the play station and talking football, while Tracey and Katherine started chatting to each other close by.

Earlier this morning an associate of Jimmy Lovine rang up and asked me to do some paper work for him to help Jimmy out, so instead of talking to Katherine and Tracey I scattered to the front of the jet where there was a built in booth and table which allowed me to start working on these papers, but before I could even fill out these sheets I had a lot of reading to do which I know is bound to make me fall asleep, as soon as I even finished the first page I was already over it and was ready to put the booklet down and do something else, but I know I have to stick to it if its going to allow me to spend more time with boys when I get home.

Marshall P.O.V

I was trying to focus on the guys and the TV but as time started to pass the guys started doing their own thing like sleeping, working on their laptops or listening to their IPod. I took the time to have a nap and catch up listening to my IPod but as the plane became so silent and calm with everyone doing their own thing I couldn't help but start watching Andrea, basically she was the only other one you could tell was awake, she wasn't making a lot of movement but every now and then she would slightly move. If anyone noticed me I know I probably looked like a massive creep or weirdo watching Andrea like this, but I can't help it I have a really good spot that allows me to keep an eye on her without her noticing.

Honestly don't ask why I feel this need to protect and care for Andrea, because even I have no idea why I am being to protective of her. For a few nights I have laid awake endlessly trying to figure out and come to some simple and normal conclusion as to why I like looking after Andrea and why she randomly always pops into my head when I am not expecting it, like right now for instance.

The one thing that's bothering me right now is her constant need to work all the time, I know people like Tracey and Paul spend this time to relax before they have to start working when arriving in America but Andrea doesn't rest at all, I don't know if its because she feels she has to prove herself still within my team or she is just a workaholic. If she is a workaholic I can relate to her since I have become one in these last couple of years, but even I know at some point you have to put down the papers and relax.

Quietly I get up making sure not to wake or disturb the others and begin walking down the aisle until I reach Andrea, I have already noticed that she is struggling to stay awake while reading some paperwork that doesn't need to be completed right now.