Behind the Pain

Somethings Never Change- Pt 2

" Thanks for coming over tonight" Hailie politely said, smiling nicely towards me and the boys before saying goodbye to us.

It's about 10:30 and the boys and I are finally heading home after enjoying a nice night at Marshall's house.

Marshall must have postponed his night with Tara because within half an hour of us getting home he was also arriving home to help out.

I know he's been trying to talk to me for the majority of the night, but since our kids are such a handful sometimes we never got a chance by ourselves to work things out. As much as i'm hurting I think I'm more pissed of knowing he lied to me just so he could sleep with somone.

" Guys can I have a word to Andrea for a sec" Marshall spoke as we are all are standing round saying goodnight to each other. I know He's been wanting to talk for a while now and since our kids don't want to leave they quickly run of.

" Don't go to far boys" I yell after them, hoping to leave soon. I've figured out that as much as I'm upset about what I saw, I am more pissed of that he lied to me just so he could have sex.

" Please Andrea.... just Listen" Marshall started pleading as soon as our kids left the room. I really just wanted to leave and go crawl up in in bed but since Marshall has been trying to talk to me the whole night I couldn't ignore him any longer, so instead of walking away I stayed hoping he would start explaining.

" Trust me Andrea that wasn't meant to happen and defiantly wasn't planned...... I didn't lie to you or my girls, she just came round uninvited" he continued explaining how she had turned up and basically exposed herself to him without him even asking her to.

" And you just seem to end up with her naked on top of you" I quickly snapped back, trying really hard not to sound hurt or jealous but knowing that is impossible since I've been feeling hurt since seeing him with her.

" She pushed me down, and since I was already a tad horny it was hard for me to get her of" he explained not knowing how much those words and hearing this story breaks might heart to hear.

" I don't need to hear the details Marshall,I already saw enough" I said stopping him from telling me anymore details.

"I'm so sorry" he added, I can tell by the way he tried to keep his tears away that he was a actually hurting just like I am.

" I know you are, but I really think we should spend a week or so apart and keep our distance from each other, I think that will be best" I said trying really hard not to cry and get upset. I just think that we have been spending nearly everyday together that having more personal space is the best way to handle this situation since we are constantly arguing and hurting each other.

" If that's what you want" he just mumbled sadly knowing that's exactly want we need to fix this, but holy crap this is going to be hard since I'm so into and addicted to Marshall.

After Finally agreeing to have some space, we gave each other a little hug goodbye hoping this wasn't the last time we hold each other.

" I don't mean to keep stuffing up" he whispered into my ear as he held me tightly like he didn't want to let me go, just like I didn't want this hug to End either, but knowing this is the best for both of us I slowly disconnected from him before calling the boys back over so I could head home and get some sleep.

( two weeks later)

Just like I imagined these last two weeks of being Marshall free have been total crap. there are days where I just want to hang out and talk To him like we used to. He was always the one that knows how to cheer me up and comfort me when I am tired and down, but these last couple of weeks i've had no one except Jordan to keep my company while the boys have been at school.

" Alright mum, I will call you later" I said before hanging the phone up. All morning I've been talking to mum about my therapy and recovery and what's been happening with the boys, since we haven't talked for a while. I guess I've been so caught up with the boys and getting my life back on track that I had forgotten about my other life in Australia, but luckily my mum knows how difficult it is to keep in touch. So when we do catch up we spend hours talking and telling each other stories.

Today we mostly talked about a friend of my mums who had tragically died a couple of days ago, my mum was quite devastated so I basically just sat there listening to her telling me stories about his legacy. There was one story she was telling that seemed to pop out at me, and seemed to stay in my head even after I had ended the conversation.

I don't know what part of the story seemed to interest me more the middle or the Ending, but what ever it was there is no doubt it was trying to tell me something, like my mother was meant to tell me this to help me out and ease some of my confusion.

All i know was after I hung up, I had this sudden urge to go visit Marshall and talk to him, and try to fix these dam issues between us.

" I'm just going out for a bit Jordan" I quickly screamed grabbing my coat from the closet and putting it on before heading out the front into the rain and towards my car, knowing this was probably the only time I was going to have the courage to go admit things to Marshall, things I haven't said before, things I've been dying to tell Marshall this whole Time that we have been friends

Really really shit chapter.

Sorry guys I basically wrote it quickly after I published the other one, but since it was at like 4 in the morning it turned out quite wrong.

It's just something short, I wanted to calm the story down a little before writing the big chapter everyone has been waiting for, anyway sorry again but I hope you enjoy anyway.

:)