Behind the Pain

Not expected

I slept a lot better last night, I dont know if it was because Andrea and I are getting back on track or if the whole weight of Hiding my feelings and trying to push them away had been lifted because Ive decided not to run from what I want anymore.

From Experience I know its not best to push or hover over someone as independent and free as Andrea, so ive been giving her some space this morning, hoping she is enjoying the time of and even maybe considering staying on board the Shady Team, we all know there isnt anyone better than Andrea for the Job, i think she just needs to see that. But if she still wants to quit Ill understand, it just means I'll have to spend more time with her out of work.

By lunch time, the people were slowly packing up there things getting ready to leave and get back to America. I had already packed, since I'm always organized and barely ever taking things out of my suitcases when I arrive.

Dinner was silent as we all ate in our own little worlds, thinking about how good it's going to be to get home, to see my daughters again. you have no idea how weird and strange this week has been, with all this drama going round and games being played with people. I'm just glad it's finally over and all we have to do now is a few more stops before heading home.

" Marshall, what's up " Paul asked behind me surprising me a little, since I still thought he was with the others.

" nothing, I just didn't see Andrea today, just checking up on her" I replied trying to sound as friendly and casual I possibly can, knowing Paul would loose it if he finds out that I have a thing for a employee.

" she went home Marshall" he replied sounding shocked that I even asked. When he said that I looked at him and wondered what he is going on about.

" what are you talking about?" I asked very confused about what he means about her going home. This is the first thing I have heard about it, so maybe he is confused between Hilary and Andrea. Hilary went home this morning.

" she's gone home back to Detroit. Royce asked me to get her a ticket last night, she left early with him " Paul explained, honestly thinking I was aware, but this is the first time I am hearing about Andrea going home and Royce getting her a ticket. I spent all night with him he would have told me, well I thought he would have told me.

" I thought you knew" Paul said noticing my shock as I stood meters from her door.

" they probably said something last night, but I've just forgotten...... I'll see you tomorrow morning" I replied trying to sound calm and relax so he wouldn't notice the sadness and anger in my tone. Why the hell would they go back to Detroit together they would only go back together if something is going on between them, no doubt they are close but maybe I just didn't see how close they actually are and knew they have played me.

Walking away I headed straight to my room, knowing I didn't want to be round anyone at the moment, not even fifty.

How could Royce and Andrea just leave like that and not tell me, I was literally with her last night, I walked her to her room and said goodnight to her, was Royce waiting in her room to laugh at me when I was gone.

He's meant to be my best friend and he knows how much I like her, I just don't get how he forgot to mention that him and Andrea were leaving today. Besides we were getting along so well last night, I honestly thought that it was a massive step forward and that she might even consider staying, but I guess I was wrong. I guess Ive been wrong about a lot of things, one is actually thinking I had a second chance with Andrea, two is ever letting Royce talk me into opening up my feelings an inner self, and three was thinking I wouldn't be the one that ended up hurt all over again.

That whole night until we had to head of to the airport I sat in my hotel room in the dark thinking how stupid I could be. I know a lot of you are thinking why am I so upset and hurt over this whole thing. It's not like I can't just see her when I get back, but the reason I'm so upset was both of them were aware that I was willing to open my feelings and do anything to show her how I feel about her and they just played me knowing they were heading home and Andrea was starting a new life away from me, she doesn't want me in her life which I understand why. I am aware that all of this comes back to me and how I wrecked it in the first place.