Behind the Pain

Normal nights

The sun was still shining when we arrived at Royce's. Their estate was very similar to mine, not as big as Marshall's but still held a fairly decent size backyard with a massive balcony looking over their pool.

Marshall and I arrived round about the same time and as I was getting things out of my car I noticed the presence of his family.

" hey Andrea " Whitney shouted while running up and giving me a long massive hug.

" hey sweetie, I love your Dress" I admired making her blush from the self confidence as she thanked me while the others walked over an greeted each other.

" we'll meet you inside" Hayden cheered obvisouly excited for this bbq since he couldn't wait to get inside even though I was still getting things out of the car.
But just like always things seem to fall into place and as I'm searching through my boot while the kids run of into the house I could feel Marshall come up behind me.

" hey" he whispered closely to my ear as he allowed his hand to scrap over my lower back. Obviously this wouldn't look like much from someone else's view but just his voice still created shivers run up my spine.

" hey" was all I could manage to reply watching as he took a seat beside me, causally sitting on the inside of my boot so he could watch me. I saw the misery in his face and straight away knew I had caused him such sadness from my words yesterday. The words that made me get no sleep what so ever since I knew I had no right to say them, here Marshall is trying to be the best boyfriend and I come out and shut down his confidence by telling him I feel disgusting with the way he constantly leaves all the time.

" about yesterday, I swear to god I dont mean to make you feel like I'm using you or your worthless" he said beginning to apologize again even though it was completely my fault.
Heartache comes over me knowing I did this to him and knowing Marshall he probably hasn't stopped worrying about ever since I said it.

" Marshall..... I'm so sorry for what I said yesterday, I was just being a drama queen who thought the whole world revolved around me. You don't make me feel worthless you actually make me feel amazing and alive, I know how hard you are trying and I feel so bad. I don't want you to stress and I would rather you forget everything that was said yesterday " I said apologizing for all the harsh words that I said and for making him feel like a crap boyfriend.
I honestly haven't had a boyfriend who puts so much effort into making sure I'm alright, it's just the little details that he does which add up to so much.

" so you want to forget everything" he replied becoming more sadder than before. I didn't really know where he was going with all of this.

" it's just I remember you told me you loved me and I don't really want to forget about that" he continued saying making a smile come over me when I figured out what he's saying. Straight away that famous cheeky smirk forms on his face as we both see the humorous side of things.

" yeah I wouldn't want you to forget that" I joked, picking up the plate of food I bought before Marshall took it away from me insisting he'll carry it.

" so I was thinking, you know how we made a plan to spend one day together a week?" Marshall asked as we began walking towards the front door.

" yeah I remember" I replied knowing exactly what plan he's talking about since we know it's a good way to keep our relationship strong.

" well..... I was thinking of going... To visit proof in the cemetery and it's like an hour away...... So I was thinking maybe you could come and we could grab some lunch after or something.... Theres a really nice bakery down there that you might like" he said keeping his eyes looking down towards the ground trying to hide his nerves. I don't know why he's nervous since it's not like the first time he's asked me out, but I'm guessing he's just uneasy since he never talks about proof.