Falling for Him

Chapter 10

Hey guys =) Two chapters in one week *feeling accomplished* look its now two digit chapters lol This chapter (more the 8th paragraph) is dedicated to Ary and Mary and all my friends. Love you =D Hope you enjoy :)

xoxo Ariel

Belle's POV

Ever experienced those feelings where you love someone but you are afraid to tell them because they may not feel the same way? What about being afraid to say "Yes," when someone asks you to be their girlfriend because you do not want to feel the pain of a heartbreak? That agonizing moment when your friend stops talking to you and then treats you like her enemy, but you try to make amends until there is no more that you can do. Believe me, I know those feelings and they are the most confusing ones ever but in every instant, there was one thing that grew more and more every time something like that happened. If you looked on the bad side of things you would feel depression but if you were like me, you always had this one thing. Hope. It was the one thing that kept me going when the entire world was against me and the one thing I believed in most.

There were a few details I forgot to mention before and sadly I have to say they are not minor ones that could be easily forgotten. This is the story of my life and when I say that I mean, my battle with cancer so far. It all began when I was twelve and almost every week, I would get the flu or almost every single disease possible. My parents thought it was just a result of a weak immune system, so they would buy me supplements which I would take everyday just to get better.

What crossed out that option was when I cut my hand. Even though it was a minor cut there was enough blood for someone to think I raptured an artery or something. When my parents realized my blood was not clotting, they took me to the doctor where they made the shocking discovery.

I had Leukemia, which was a cancer that affected your blood. It leads to an abnormal increase of immature white blood cells and a lack of blood platelets which was needed for the clotting of blood. That was why my cut was not healing as quickly as other people's. Finally, Leukemia, in a way, destroyed your immune system by the white blood cells attacking other cells that are NOT foreign to the body but for some reason the white blood cells assume they are, which resulted in me being sick so regularly.

Some people will wonder," How come you didn't suffer from depression?" Well, I do sometimes but I try my best to do whatever makes me the happy like drawing, spending time with my family and friends and support, lots of support.

I thought of it like this," What was the point of living and having a good life if you don't at least do something memorable and have great memories. Right?"

I mean after all, you could lose all the material things but the one thing you can not lose are the memories that you have and you may even think about them in the night.

Those memories like, celebrating your birthday, Christmas, at school with your friends even if it is having a specific song that you and your friend share, laughing like a maniac at perverted jokes that one friend in particular makes, sending notes to your friends because no one really understands what is going on in class and are just bored, having those amazing parties at random times and taking silly pictures. Those are truly the most important moments and the memories that would live on forever. Maybe, it is because I was scared? Or even, because I don't know how much time I have left? Whatever it is, these are the things I would always cherish for the rest of my life.

I still remember how I felt when I found out, I was scared and wondered, "Why me?" I remember at school, how I felt like an outcast and I assumed that people could feel or sense that I was different. I was afraid that someone would find out because I didn't want to be treated differently because of cancer. I knew I didn't want to be belittled or be treated like a helpless baby, but I was as strong as I could be. I just had to stay strong and hope for the best until my parents returned from their 'business trip'

They were trying to find a hospital which would do an exceptional bone marrow transplant or even induction chemotherapy, to bring about bone marrow remission. I was hoping for the best since if they were to succeed with this, my chance of life gets a little better and my life itself gets a little longer.

Basically, that's my story on how I found out I had cancer and normally someone may be sad but I guess I'm the type of girl that can be so hurt but could still look at you and smile. I hope I could defeat cancer and every day that hope grows a little more.

🎶 One day while my light is glowing

I'll be in my castle golden

But until the gates are open

I just wanna feel this moment (ohhh)

I just wanna feel this moment (ohhh)

I just wanna feel this moment🎶

So what did you guys think?

I thought the song at the end fitted perfectly :) so yea she does have cancer.How would Nate or anyone react when she tells them... if she tells them.

Omg so I'm going to change the cover soon. Whenever I get a little time, but it is amazing and I have to thank my friend for creating it for me. I love it soo much =)

Like in every chapter thank you for everything. You reading my book, voting and commenting. I really appreciate it =D