Summer [ Harry styles fanfic ]

WHY ME?

EDITED:

JUST A QUICK WARNING! THIS CHAPTER CONTAINS EMOTIONAL CONTENT!

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AVERY'S POV:

"Who the hell was that?!!" Josh yelled while hovering over me.

"Nobody Josh please, Please!!" I begin to cry.

"Why the fuck are you crying!!?" All of a sudden i felt another sting to my face and then I started crying even more and harder.

"Please Josh p- please w- what did I- I do?" I couldn't breath i was crying so hard.

"You know what you did!!"Josh screamed. I hate when he gets like this, I wish I knew what I did, and how to calm him down but it's happened again, for the last time. He jumped off of me and started crying, then looked up and started walking over to me. No I can't take this no more, God if your out there please help, I silently pray to my self. In hopes my prayers would be answered. That didn't stop him, he came closer and with eve step my heart pumped out my chest, I broke.

"JOSH! P-PLEASE!!" I started pouring into tears again, then he was in front of me and put his hand on my hand gently, I flinched under his touch, but didn't dare move for I was hesitant on his next actions.

"Baby.... I'm sorry... I- I didn't mean too I'm sorry." Josh said while crying, he kissed all my cuts and bruises that he made. I started crying even more. I don't know what to do right now, One minute he's nice then the next he's beating me and taking knifes and cutting me.

"Baby I love you I'm sorry, I cant believe i did this! My love, My beautiful baby my life and my woman that carries my beautiful children. I'm so sorry I love you so much I didn't mean to hurt you." I couldn't speak for I was to scared too I only saw Josh like this one time when his dad died, I broke up with him but he told me he changed. 5 years passed since he's done this again. He can't change, he keeps taking this path, and I can't seem to control him.

"Baby please say something anything please!" He begged, my eyes dried quickly and my face went mono tone.

"I'm scared" I admitted, with the seriousness in my voice.

"I'm sorry please i wont hurt you again I swear please baby!" He cried harder. My heart hurts for him I want to caress him and tell him I'm here for him no matter what and that I forgive him, and that I love him more than anything, but in this case I can't and won't.

"No Josh, I love you Josh so damn much but I cant, I cant have this anymore, I'm pregnant you could've killed them, I'm terrified of you right now. I'm on the edge and I think I might call the cops, but yet there's always something in there telling me not to for some reason." Tears leak down my face as I stand my ground, I stood up he got up and looked me in the eye, I wanted to run, hide scream, but in this case I can't or else he would step all over me again.

"Done? Y-Your d-done as in with m- me?" He began to cry even more. I took a deep breath it took everything out of me not to comfort him but I don't need this at all. I'm gonna have babies soon they don't need to see this kind of stuff. I'm done taking risk, I'm seriously done now. My chest aches at the use of words i was thinking.

"Yes, I'm packing and leaving, If you love me you will let me go." My heart just fell out my chest and hit the floor hard. 

"I do, I love you but please promise me you'll think about coming back?"

"Josh-" I start but he puts his finger over my lips.

" No, let me finish please just think about it, I wont call you talk to you anything, Ill even get help, But promise me I need to see my kids birth. Just please promise me." He begs, I know i'm going to absolutely regret this but he is the dad for Gods sake.

"I promise" I say. Only to get the worst feeling of all time.

"Thank you" He said.

"Avery?" He called.

"Yes?" I'm so scared its not even funny. I feel like if I answer him wrong he might kill me.

"Kiss me." He demanded and I'm at lost for words.

"What?" I say confused as ever.

"Kiss me." He demanded again, my heart beats so loud I'm pretty sure the whole neighborhood can hear it.

"No!" I yell and my voice cracks.

"Please just one last kiss before you leave please." he begged and grabbed my waist, i flinch for I have cuts on my waist from his makings, but I flinched because I'm more scared he will hurt me for saying no.

"Please don't hurt me." I say and i can feel my eyes watering. I look at his eyes only to see hurt and sadness in them. I don't care no matter how much it hurts me, my goal is to just get out of where you has the power to hurt me.

"I'm not, Just one goodbye kiss please?" I looked into his eyes and shook my head. All of a sudden he crashed his lips into mine, this kiss was different it was slow and for a second just a second, I forgot about everything, then he put his hand on one of my open cuts I hissed and pulled away.

"I-I'm sorry." He slowly said.

"Yeah me too" I said harshly

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I finally finished packing and i cant wait to leave this hell hole of a place. As I walked out the door Josh stopped me.

"I love you Avery." I kissed his cheek quickly then pulled away.

"I know you do." And i left, as i get to the car i put my stuff in the trunk; I sat in the car until life hit me, hard. I started to cry. Where would i go? I reached in my pocket to get my phone to call Morgan; then i felt some paper when i pulled it out it was money a lot of it and a note was attached to it.

* Avery I'm really sorry for what i did don't forget your promise please. Here's some money I've been saving for a rainy day. I should be $20,000. I've been saving saving it since i was 10 and now this is my rainy day. Don't thank me. I owe you this. I love you please don't forget that.*

-Josh

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