Things I Won't Forget // l.h

Part 14: Bromance B4 Romance?

Luke's POV

I left Amanda alone.

Not because I was mad at her, but because this has happened before, where she wouldn't listen to me. So I decided she needed some space as well, and with me being there wasn't going to help at all.

Amanda had my blood boiling, for sure. But there was something about her that made me love her anyways. Just like how we met at a cafe, and she was so nice, so friendly, and her smile. Damn, that smile. I missed it so much. I saw a glimpse of it when she was drunk with me yesterday night, but I knew she was tired, and it wasn't real. 

Thinking about last night made me feel shit again. I kept replaying Amanda's words in my head.

 'Give it up already Luke, what we had was in the past, and you used me like some sex toy just to get to my sister. People have feelings, Luke, and I like mine to be unbroken.'

 What Amanda didn't know what that she meant everything to me. She was my world, and the nights where she'd stay over at her friends' houses, I'd be at home, trying to FaceTime her on my iPhone, and cuddling alone on the bed with a empty space next to me.

I would never use her as a sex toy. I would never dream of it. We haven't even had sex as a couple yet. I knew she lost her virginity in a blueberry bush, but I wish it would've been me to take her v card. That night, when I had sex with Elysia, I honestly didn't know what I was thinking. I was high, she was high. I thought she was Amanda and she thought.. well she still thought I was Luke. 

I sighed deeply and fell backwards onto my bed, thinking about Amanda, and how much I missed her scent, her laugh, the crinkle of her eyes when she laughed, and mostly her. 

That was when Michael came into the room, telling me how he was speaking to Amanda a few minutes ago, and how she had calmed down a bit. "Girls on PMS these days," He'd quietly whispered to me, even though there was no one else in the house. I laughed at his comment.

Moments later, while Michael and I were playing Fifa in my bedroom, my phone beeped, meaning I recieved a text. I rolled over to my phone and tapped the message open.

Hey, it's Amanda.. Sorry about my outburst this morning, I didn't know that I was drunk as hell until Michael told me. I also heard we're partners for a English project? Looking forward to working with you...I guess. I can almost sense your smile after you read that bit. Hope you have a good night. -Manda

I jumped off the floor with happiness and excitement rushing through my veins. Did that mean she forgave me? For everything? I mean she did sign herself off as Manda at the end and she apologized. There were no words that I could use to express my emotions right now, so I simply crawl under the covers of my bed, and wanted to have a good night, like Amanda said. Michael later on joined me under the covers, but we weren't naked or anything. And we're not gay or anything, it's just some days we like to lay beside each other, and have some company. It's a comforting feeling to know that someone's always got your back.