Things I Won't Forget // l.h

Part 23: I love you full stop

Luke's POV

I watched as they slow danced together, his hand on her waist and her arms around his neck.

It was absolutely torture, seeing her with Ashton. Why would she go for the nerd when she has Mr Popular right here?

Oh right, I forgot.

Manda probably likes those type of guys, I mean, that girl joins after school book clubs, rides her bike to school, and the library is practically her second home.

She looked so stunning tonight. I swore everyone in the room was staring at her. That dress did miracles on her body, hugging every part of her curves tightly, showing off her nice butt. And her makeup. It brought out the magnificent blue in her eyes and I wanted to run up to her and kiss her right on the lips.

Amanda swayed her hips in tune with the music, against Ashton's body, and I gulped a huge gulp of my spiked drink, green with envy.

It wasn't fair how tonight was one the rare nights where Amanda actually dressed up for a party and was being social, and it was Ashton who got the first dance with her. Not me.

She was grinding on him now.

What the fuck does she think she's doing? Fucking making him get an erection? Was that what she wanted? I felt myself getting angrier by the minute. I knew she was doing this on purpose to hurt me, and damn, it was working.

Ashton was holding her gently, and Manda moved his hands from her waist to her ass.

That was when I felt my legs taking me over to Amanda and Ashton.

Amanda's POV

"Oi. You think you're so tough now dontcha?" Luke's voice startled me from behind but I somehow had expected it.

"What are you talking about?" I asked innocently, while Ashton's hands were still around my waist.

Luke looked down at Ashton's hand and he licked his lower lip.

"You think you can just make me jealous by dancing with Ashton?" He scoffed laughing, "Oh Mandy, you could've tried harder. Ashton isn't worth your time."

I felt defensive over Ash, who was my friend and he was amazingly sweet. "First of all Hemmings, don't tell me who's not worth my time. I can talk to whoever I want, and who said I was trying to make you jealous?" I smirked and wrapped my arm around Ash's waist tighter.

Luke's eyes darkened at the gesture.

"Amanda. I need to talk to you."

We held each other's gaze for a while until I looked away. "Fine." I wriggled out of Ash's grip and kissed him on the cheek, "See you later." Ashton smiled.

I didn't have to turn around to know that Luke was jealous.

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After Luke had dragged me upstairs and into one of the guest rooms of Louis' house, we both sat there, not one of us spoke.

"So what did you have to tell me?" I huffed impatiently, "I need to get back to Ash."

That got Luke's attention.

"Mandy, I..."

"Spit it out, Lucas." I tapped my fingers in the bed.

"I.. I love you?" Luke's 'confession' sounded like a question. Why was I even here wasting my time when I could be somewhere else with Ash? Like on this bed.

"Ladies and gentleman, that is the drunk Luke Hemmings taking bullcrap again." I rolled my eyes and stood up to leave.

"No, Manda, stop. I'm being serious," Luke grabbed my wrist and took a deep breath and spoke with certainty this time, like how it took him a while to figure it out.

"I love you." He touched his fingertip against my cheek and continued, "I love you so much, Mandy. You're so fucking beautiful...You have no idea how much my heart aches for you. I'm so sorry for what I said before, you know I don't mean it...I just... I love you. Full stop." Luke looked up at me with hopeful eyes, and I was speechless.

"Okay." I replied, taking my arm out I his hold.

"J-just okay?" He bit his lip nervously.

"Um, yeah?" I kept my face neutral as I lied straight to his face,

"I don't love you."

I walked out of the room where Luke had just confessed his love for me, to find Ashton. The last thing I saw was Luke's heartbroken face, it was crumpled like I threw his heart in the trash. So now he knows how I felt when he-

Okay, I've got to stop comparing things in the present with past.

We live in the now, and something I need to learn is to forget the past.

Going for Ash was what my heart was ordering me to do, and my heart couldn't be wrong, right?