The Silent One ✔

Chapter Fifty-Six

"Calm down Angel" Sage sighs.

We both stand in the waiting room at the hospital. Me pasting back and forth, whilst Sage stands calmly.

I calm down? Sam is in there DYING. I'm allowed to be frantic right now.

"What is wrong with you!" I cry at the top of my lungs "one of your best friends was just shot in his heart and you're as cool as a fucking cucumber!"

Sage leans forward calmly as I clench my fists.

"He missed his heart" She whispers into my ear.

I pause. What does that mean?

"What?" I furrow my brows as the doctors come out.

"he's going to be okay" the female doctor starts.

My eyes widen in confusion. "Thank God" I sigh with tears running down my cheeks.

"Samuel has a condition called Situs Inversus" she starts "it is a congenital condition in which the major visceral organs are reversed from their normal positions....it affects one in ten thousand people"

I furrow my brows. "Wait so his heart-"

"Is on the right side of his chest" she tells me.

How could the shooter be aware, when I wasn't even aware? Two years of dating and he didn't mention this.

"When can we see him?" Sage questions.

"He has just gotten out of surgery and we're treating him for internal bleeding and blood loss" the doctor informs "he should wake up soon...you can see him when that happens"

"Thank you" Sage nods.

"The son of a bitch knew" I furrow my brows in shock before glaring at Sage "you both did"

"When you're shot in the heart you only have a minute left and that's if you don't die instantly," Sage tells me "he never lost consciousness...plus Sam may have mentioned it a while back"

He could have died, even if the bullet missed his heart. I could have lost him.

I wipe my tears with my sleeve. The thought of losing Sam scares the fuck out of me. I don't know life without me. I know juvy. I know the few weeks that I was here without him. Other then that, I don't know how I would live without him.

"I haven't seen you cry since Trisha died" she half smiles.

I shrug "I met someone who got me loving and crying again"

"That guy you thought Jake abducted?" She raises a brow.

"Yeah" I nod slowly.

Chris has helped me so unbelievably much this year. I'll always love him for that.

Sam was my first boyfriend. He was there doing all the crazy shit with me. He was there when Trisha died and he was there when I was arrested. Chris is the guy that taught me a lot about living - which is something that I think I forgot how to do.

"Me and Chris broke up actually" I announce.

"Oh I'm sorry" Sage says.

"We broke up because I love Sam. I still love him and now he's hurt because of me" I sob.

"That's not true. If anything it's my fault for bringing him."

"I hurt people, Sage, that's all I'm good for"

Suddenly the nurse comes back. I snap my head in her head direction quickly. 

"Can I see him?" I ask her.

She nods "one at a time should be okay"

I sigh in relief before entering Sam's room fearfully.

"You gave me a fucking heart attack, you idiot! What is wrong with you? I could have lost you!" I walk to his bed side.

"I rather I get hurt then you," Sam says as I approach his bed aggressively.

"Im so sorry for all this" I weep. "I'll make it up to you some how"

Sam kisses my lips, calming me down. After a few seconds, he pulls away slowly "you just did. So what happens now?"

I smile at Sam, tears streaming down my cheeks. "I'm glad you're okay"

Sam softens his gaze in confusion. "Angel?"

"Thank you...for everything" I wipe away my tears, kissing his cheek. "Maybe in another life...I would kiss you and tell you how I feel and we'll leave this hospital together...move back to New York and get our happily ever after"

"Angel...please" his eyes well up with tears.

"I'm not her, Sam. I'm not the Evangeline you fell in love with." I shake my head, tears streaming down my cheeks. "I've grown so much since I was that twisted kid in New York and I'm still growing, every day I keep building upon myself and I'll keep at it till I'm proud of who I am."

"Angel" he repeats. "Don't do this"

"You want her back but she's not here anymore...you're in love with a ghost. I'm sorry for all the trouble I've caused you" my voice breaks. "I'm so sorry for all of this. I'll never forgive myself for you getting hurt"

"You were never trouble...not to me"

"Good bye, Sam" I sniff, leaving his room slowly.

I'm not good for people. All I do is hurt. Because that's what broken people do. We break other people.

I need to figure out who the I am, on my own. I need to know life outside of Sam. Without anyone else in the picture but me. Perhaps that makes me selfish but maybe I deserve to be a little self sometimes in my life.

Sage watches me leave the hallway slowly. "I can't be with him, Sage. It's not fair on him. He deserves more then this. Then me."

"B—but you love Sam, don't you?" She asks.

"If you love someone, set them free," I force a smile, tears streaming down my cheeks.

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A/N

Hey, so just letting Y'all know that the condition Situs inverses (the one that Sam has), is a real condition that affects one in ten thousand people.

I wanted to make this book as realistic as possible (hence using a real condition instead of making something up).

This is also the new and improved ending. The original one felt forced and unnatural so I changed it :)

I hope you guys enjoyed this chapter.

Also, this chapter corresponds with chapter 13 of The Fallen One.

Thank you