The Fuckgirls' Secret

Page|50: Bye, Jake-for real.

Graduation was over. It was completely over. And half of me was glad while the other was sad. Sad because we are all parting ways for college. But this is the time where new chapters would be opened and I'm excited for it.

Courtney's dad awarded me with a college scholarship in their new school and I was so happy.

Jake had the last party on his house. Everyone celebrated, and everyone was happy except me.

Brandon is still on my mind as I danced with Jake. I wondered where he is. He should be here, saying goodbye to Jake. But he wasn't.

There's a group here doing body shots and I cringed at the sight. A guy licking the alcohol on the girl's navel. Ew!

I looked away and went to the basement where my friends are seated with the beercanscwrapped in my arms.

"Here ya' go," I said to Jake, handing him the beer.

"Thanks, Babe," He muttered and I smiled at him as I put the can on my lips.

"Hey, Amy." I walked over to where the girls sat.

"What?" I asked Millie.

"I'm also going to your university!" Millie squealed and I hugged her.

"Cool! I'm so excited for it." We gushed about school, then Courtney talked about her going with Oliver on his University. Kate will be leaving for New York with Ian, pursuing on their acting.

"I'm so glad faking being a fuckgirl days are over." Courtney sighed.

"Yeah, but I'll miss it, and most of all, you guys." Kate added.

"Let's cheers to college." Millie said cheerfully, her hands holding her glass up.

"To college!" We all said and we clinked glasses and beercans while giggling like the schoolgirl we were.

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This is it.

The goodbye. Oh my God. I can't do this. I will miss him too much. He's been a great part of my high school. And I can't deny that I felt something for him too, but now he's leaving and I hope we'll remained in contact.

He wore a leather jacket and his ripped jeans. He smiled at me sadly. "Don't be like that, I promise I'll call you and we'll videochat everytime. We'll set up a schedule," He kept on speaking as my tears are threatening to spill.

"Hey, Amy. I have to go," He said one last time and I put my arms around his neck. Hugging him like his my lifeline.

"I--I..." I don't know what to say. I want to say the three words but that would be weird and there's still Brandon in my head. And he is leaving now. If I tell him, I love him now, it's too late because he is leaving. And what if he finds another girl there. That would suck. So, I told him, "I...will miss you."

And he pulled away to press his lips on mine. We started slowly and now he was kissing me rough. We don't care if there are other people here as long as this is what I feel right now. And this felt right.

We pulled away when the speaker announced he's flight.

He looked at me with a slight smile.

"I...I.." I stared straight into his ocean blue eyes. I guess Jake was at loss for words too. "I will miss you too," He said, tucking a stray hair behind my ear. And my tears fell down. He wiped it with his fingers and smiled at me again.

"I'll see you soon." He grabbed his bag and dragged it away.

"Bye, Jake!" Courtney shouted with the rest.

He looked back once again with a huge grin on his face, waving at us. My face remained chaotic. I should probably be shouting at myself for letting him go that way. I should have at least told him that I felt something for him.

"Come on, Amy. He's gone now. And it's not the end." Courtney wrapped her arms on my shoulder and I leaned on her. Kate and Mille went on my other side and hughed me too.

"You so totally liked him too. I ship you guys!" Kate said.

"But he's gone now." I muttered with a groan.

"Ever heard of a long-distance-relationship?" Kate said but my brain says no to that. I shook my head.

"No way! What if he doesn't feel the same, and if he finds somebody else there who's perfect for him?"

"You're so full of 'what if's!' What if you started telling him how you feel and start a relationship now?" I shook my head again.

That's too complicated for me and Jake. I know it's true.

"Kate, don't push it." Millie added.

"You're just bitter because you're shipping Amelia with Brandon. Sorry Mil, but the ship just drowned months ago." Kate was really pushing it, as Mil glared at her.

Courtney remained steady and quiet. I wonder what's going on in her head.

"Hey, guys! I hope you still remember that we're here!?" Ian said. He is wlking with Oliver and Jimmy.

And I felt a pang of jelousy that eveyone had their own lovelife while mine went to England minutes ago.

The End.