Miss Atomic Bomb | a.i

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At the end of the day, I headed to my locker in hopes of seeing Rae. I desperately wanted to talk to her and ask her what was wrong, find out why she was acting so upset. I wanted to help her.

I eventually made my way through the crowd of loud students, throwing paper balls at each other and couple making out against lockers. It was sort of gross but the teachers really didn't care all that much.

I stopped a foot away from my locker, turning around to see if Rae was anywhere in sight. I could tell she wasn't coming to her locker, but I was just making sure. I looked at my feet, replaying what happened earlier in my head. She seemed to distant from me, like she was trying to get away from me.

Maybe I should leave her alone for a while.

I didn't want to leave Rae alone, she was one of the first girls to interact with me and really make me happy. But I didn't want her to hate me. I couldn't bare just when she got a little mad at me every now and then. It always made me more sad then angry. I didn't like seeing her upset or mad.

I threw all my things in my locker, bringing only a math text book with me in my bag incase Rae changed her mind and wanted me to come over and study, which we never even did anyway. We always chose to give up after twenty minutes of doing questions out of the text book and just talk. We would talk about movies, books, everything we had in common. She made me extremely happy, and now, even more comfortable. I couldn't let her just throw that all away.

I shoved the hard copied book into bag and whipped it around my head so it rested on my should, and began walking. I got shoved several times, slowing me down until I finally got to the front entrance.

I had work today, which I didn't feel like going to, but today was just a three hour shift. If Rae had agreed to studying tonight, I could've been at her house by at least seven and we would've sat on her floor and I would have watched her lips as she went on and on about her favorite season of Doctor Who, but since she obviously didn't want to do that, I guess I could ask for an extra hour and maybe get ten dollars extra at the end of the week.

It took me about twenty minutes to get to the mall. The school wasn't far, maybe ten minutes by driving, but I didn't have a car. I had my license, but my mother would kill me if I ever tried to drive in her car. We couldn't really afford my own car, so it was just easier for me to walk to and back from school.

The store was nearly empty as I swung open the front see through door. It was Monday so it wasn't really packed like it was on the weekends. I trudged over to the long counter in the front of the store and grabbed the necklace with 'cashier' tagged to the front and slipped it over my head, taking off my jean jacket and dropping it on top of my bag. I shoved my glasses further up the bridge of my nose and stood at the cash register, waiting for someone to come toward me.

I wondered off, my hand resting under my head for support, bored out of my mind like always. I was pretty tired but standing up stopped me from drifting. I thought about what Rae could be doing right now. She could be talking to Harley, she could be obsessing over one of her favorite shows, she could be timings out the world and listening to music. Anything she did interested me in all honesty. The way she moved, the way her lips moved as she talked, the way her cheeks turned red every time I made her giggle or she had done something embarrassing. It was sometimes more amusing as well as interesting.

When I first met Rae, she freighted me. Her popularity intimidated me and her beauty taunted me. I never thought that I would be as close to her as I am now, and now that I think about it the only other woman I've ever been this close with was my mother. She use to hang out with Luke and Michael all the time so I felt like I had no chance, I felt small. Like I had no choice but to sit back and watch Luke Hemmings get the girl once again. I was use to him getting the new girls, matter of fact any girl, but Rae was different.