Breathless (A Sam Pottorff Fan Fiction)

Chapter 22

Sam's POV:

I picked the note up and started reading it..

"Sam, I love you with all my heart. I hate causing you all the pain that I do. I decided to stay with my dad for a while. I'm doing this for you, so you can be happy without me. I love you Sammy.

-Spencer"

My tears started hitting the note as a I folded it and put it in my pocket. How could she leave me? Doesn't she understand that I need her. She's why I'm here. She's my everything.

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Spencer's POV:

I couldn't start hurting the people I care about so I left..

It's the best for everybody, except me of course. I love Sam with everything I have but he deserves someone who wouldn't hurt him like I do, and cause drama in his life.

My mom has agreed to let me stay with my dad for the summer so the next first flight to Georgia, I'll be boarding and staying there. I don't have much with me but it will do. I mean hey, I still have my 3 best friends.

I miss Sam already, and this is going to be so hard. I just hope he understands. I get to the airport and get my boarding pass, and they call my flight number. Well bye, Cali..

I get on the plane and think about everything. Sam, he cut when we weren't together.. What will he do now? He told me he needed me and now I'm leaving. This is a mistake. Sam needs me and I need him. What have I done.

"I need to get off the plane" I say practically screaming at the flight attendant lady.

"I'm sorry honey, but the flight is about to take. We can't let you do that." She replied back giving me a "go sit the hell down" look.

This can't be happening. No no no no. Sam, I hope he is okay.

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Sam's POV:

She's gone.. The girl I love is gone. She just left me, like it was nothing. I take what's left of the shattered pieces of my heart and go on a walk.

I can't be without her, I love her. I need her here, with me.

I can't gain the strength to call her because I know I'll just cry my eyes out. What is she doing to me?

I got home and went into my bathroom. I searched my drawers for my blades and found them.

I took them out and just stared at them for a while. I've been clean for weeks and it's all thanks to Spencer. She saved me. She makes me better, happier, everything.

I picked one up in my right hand while holding out my left wrist. I start to picture Spencer, holding my hand walking to the beach. Smiling, laughing and being happy.

I can't harm again, I promised her I wouldn't. I throw the blades in the garbage and decide to just text her. Things can't get any worse.

Me: "why?.."

Spencer: "I love you"

Me: "then why did you leave me?"

Spencer: "I'm not having this conversation with you right now, bye Sam"

Ouch that hurt.

She doesn't even care! I'm so fucking stupid for thinking she loved me. She never did, she didn't care that I self harmed. She doesn't give a shit.

She wouldn't even care If I killed myself, maybe I just should.

I wouldn't be in this cycle of pain and she can just go on with her life. Although she already is, without me. Not caring how I feel.

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Haven't updated in weeks, sorry! Not sure how I feel for this chapter but I hope y'all like it. Thanks for 2.7 views!

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