It Gets Better// Perrie Edwards

It hurts (1)

Jade
"I'm heart broken Jade, how am I going to break free from him when I can't look at one thing for 5 minutes without breaking down into floods of tears again?" Perrie huffed at me in response to the request that she came out with me just to the supermarket.
My heart was aching for her, ever since that dick of a boyfriend cheated on her she had been devastated, not doing more then sitting on the couch and sobbing her eyes out at a movie or a song or a book. 
I shuffled closer to her and took her hand in mine, I lifted her chin so her eyes met mine and whispered "oh babe I hate seeing you like this, it's like I've lost my little ray of sunshine, all you have to do is at least smile for me just once."
"But it's so hard Jade, I've been trying, honestly but my whole body is broken from him. I can't look at anything without having a memory of him. Every time I open my phone my face next to his is plastered, I'm  all over the papers and then, then there's her. She's everywhere Jade, every time I close my eyes, to sleep, she swims in and poisons my peace. I'm so done Jade, I can't go on anymore."
And with that she stood up and walked to the bathroom, tears streaming down her face, following the same path as all the others before them. I was right on her heals, banging on the bathroom door pleading her to not do something stupid, telling her that she was beautiful, not worthless but priceless, irreplaceable, worth more than anything in the whole world.
Half an hour later she unlocked the door and collapsed into my arms, still sobbing but at least not alone. Carefully, I led her body to the sofa and sat her down, stroking her hair.
"What did I do to deserve this?" She asked between sobs.
I pulled her closer and whispered the honest answer; "nothing, babe you didn't do anything wrong okay, it was all him, he was the jerk who didn't see how beautiful, desirable and wonderful you are. But that's his fault now, he doesn't have that anymore. You don't need him babe, you have everything you need right now, embrace it, you're absolutely perfect babe. Now lets do something to make you feel better, let's have the girls round and have a movie night, I promise I won't leave your side ever, I'm your shoulder to cry on and your personal cuddle buddy. So come on snuggle in, I'm comfy don't you know!" I finished and pulled her closer, I sent a text to Jess and Leigh who promised they would be over shortly. I pressed a kiss to the top of her head in a comforting manner a and softly cooed encouragement to her.
10 minutes later the doorbell rang and I got up to open it before rushing back to Perrie's side, without really acknowledging my other friends presence, which they totally understood. Jesy walked into the living room where we were and said "hey girlies how are you both?"
"We're alright aren't we Pez," I hugged her tightly and she weakly nodded "Jess I don't mean to be a bum but would you please bring over my movie collection so we can pick while you fix us some lunch like you promised?" I ordered more than asked.
"Yeah sure," she passed me the box and said "there you are babe" before she left though she caught my eye and mouthed "how has she been?" to which I responded with a quick shake of my head. Jesy nodded and left the room to help Leigh.
"Righty my buba which one shall we have?" I asked presenting her with the movies
"Hmmm, how about Aladdin?" She exclaimed her voice horse and hollow from her sobbing.
"Sounds good, my favourite film, we'll wait for Jess and Leigh to come back before we start to watch. Do you want to get your PJs on and then we can properly cuddle in comfort!" I suggested, to which she responded with another weak nod and we both got up walking to our respective rooms to change. I quickly slipped on my clothes and walked to the kitchen to see Leigh and Jesy plating up the nachos.
"Mmmmm that looks good Leigh." I whispered causing her to jump.
"Shit Jade you scared the frickin' life out of me but your right they do look good."
"How is she Jade, she looks so ill, like she hasn't slept in days," Jesy asked me, concern was clearly present in her voice.
"You pretty much summed it up, she hasn't slept because every time she falls asleep she sees her with him. She basically can't go very long without sobbing uncontrollably. She's a wreck and it's all his fucking fault."
"Aww Jadey, come here babe." Jesy said pulling me in as I began to cry, the stress of seeing her broken had finally hit me; I cracked and broke down in her arms. Soon after Leigh came behind me and hugged me too.
A minute or so later I pulled away and wiped the tears from my eyes, "I need to go and check on her just bring the food into the living room when you're done."
"Okay babe" Jesy said but before I could fully exit she grabbed my wrist and reassured me "she'll be alright Jade, she's a tough cookie." I nodded and left. I sat down and stared intently at her room waiting for her to exit. Less than 30 seconds of waiting later I stood up and knocked on her door, calling through it "Pez? Are you alright in there babe?" I pressed my ear to the door, waiting for her reply but when it didn't come, I twisted the spherical brass knob and pushed my way into her room to see her daydreaming with a ring in her hand. I came up behind her and hugged her whispering "you ok?"
She shook her head and said "when he gave me this he said he loved me more than anything in the world. That he'd be with me through everything and nothing could ever change how much he loved me. That he wanted to have kids with me. That he wanted to grow old with me. And I believed him Jade, I believed him. Every word. Every word. Then what does he do he just throws it away and leaves me alone. I don't know what I did wrong. I loved him didn't I, with all, my heart, was that not enough?" She finished twirling the ring between her fingers.
"I'm so sorry babe, I can honestly tell you that you have done nothing wrong, it was his choice and he was so foolish. But holding onto this isn't going to help, you don't need it anymore baba, you're so much more than a ring so much more." I explained, taking the ring from her fingers, and throwing it into the bin. "Now let's go back and sit down and have a good cuddle ok, I promise it gets better, it just doesn't feel like that at the moment." She nodded and wiped away a few of her tears, turning into my chest. Carefully I led her back to the sofa, sat her down and pulled a blanket over us as she lay her head on my chest again.
Moments later our friends walked in with plates of nachos, which caused Perrie to turn her head from the TV to the food. She properly smiled for the first time in a while and gladly accepted a plate off Leigh, almost immediately tucking into it.