It Gets Better// Perrie Edwards

Baby Stuff (21)

Perrie POV

a couple of days later

I'm laying on the couch with my hands resting on my stomach, as the telly played on low, whilst I fantasise having her laying there, her little eyes looking up into mine. The house was much more calm and quiet than usual because Jade was out with Jed, who had just come back from America, it would be one of their last days together before tour. I'm so happy Jade had found Jed, he's amazing for her and shows her how wonderful love can be. However happy I am for them, I also can't help thinking how I might never feel like that again, that I might never get to fall in love again. I mean who would want a single mother who is away for months and months at a time for her job. I wouldn't that's for sure.

But I can't think like that, I shouldn't think like that. It's not good.

After I pushed the intrusive thoughts away, I sat up and grabbed the lap top that was on the coffee table deciding I'd order some stuff for Ebony's room. I have to get most of the stuff for it before we leave for tour in a few days so that my family can decorate it for me whilst I am away. It was no where near ready because Jade's furniture was still in it. Jade and I decided that she would move rooms to one of the spare rooms and Ebony would get Jade's old room because it was closer to my room for when she is a little bit older and is sleeping in her own room.

I searched pintrest first of all to get some inspiration, although I am fairly sure how I want it to be done. Once I had done that I went onto etsy and went a little mad ordering all sorts for her room, including a delicate set of letters that spelt her name out in pink and white and few quilt sets to match. Next I hopped onto mothercare and browsed the furniture, although I didn't buy anything because the girls and I were going to pick it out properly tomorrow.

Feeling tired for no reason whatsoever, I closed my laptop and got up. I pulled my pyjamas on and crawled into bed, turning the tv. I swithced to comedy central to watch friends, before turning the lamp off to settle down. In no time at all my eyes were beginning to close so I whispered "Night night Ebony, Mammy loves you" and to my surprise I felt my stomach move a little but resigned it to just my body digesting the dinner Jade had left me in the kitchen.

⌚️next day⌚️

"so whats's the plan for today then?" Jesy asked, sticking her feet on the coffee table, looking at me and the other girls with high anticipation.

I took a sip of my tea before answering her, "well I need to go to Mother care to get stuff for the baby"

"So which one do you want to go to, the local one or the bigger one near blue water? And what do you want to get there again?" Leigh asked, sipping at her coffee, which was almost certainly too hot for her to drink.

"the one near by, less chance of being spotted and I was hoping to get her furniture ordered and a few essential items like a rocker and maybe some clothes, although not many because I've got my eye on quite a few from a little boutique back home, that Mam's buying for her." I explained to them, showing them the list I had written on my phone.

"Cool, so am I driving then?" Leigh asked and we all looked up in horror at her, "what?"

"You do realise Perrie has to be alive when she has the baby, don't you?" Jesy exclaimed making us all laugh and Leigh frown.

"I'm not that bad, I swear I've improved" she whined, still frowning but finding it all the more difficult to keep a straight face at us.

"If you say so, but if you kill us, I swear to God I'll murder you Leigh-Anne Pinnock!" Jade said, making all of us including Leigh burst into laughter again at her irony.