Forrbiden Love (book 1)

Chapter 43: the thought of goodbye

(Pb's pov)

As we walk back to the castle I hold my hood over my head and just look at the ground... We are never going to get a break. We always get each other into trouble. We haven't had one peaceful day since us started. Would I be protecting her if I ended it? Or would I break her heart? How does she feel about it? I start to ask then I just stop and walk into the huge castle doors. I go upstairs and hang my coat up then change into my usual dress. When I go downstairs she's sitting on the couch.

"Hay Marcy, we never get a break do we?" I say somewhat joking

"Eh..." She says floating above my couch, looking at the ground she says in a low tone "no... Not really..."

"So where you ok? Did marshal or your dad hurt you any?"

"Nah... They just... Well marshal hit me but my dad pushed him out. No big deal... And my father tried to make me feel guilty. But everything's fine."

"Good..." Right as I'm about to speak I see peppermint come in and he tells me to help him with a few things. But when I go help all I can think of is Marcy.

"Princess are you even listening?" He says snapping at me.

"Yes... I mean... Wait what were we talking about?"

"Some of our issues."

"What issues?"

He growls and hands me a stack full of papers. "Here. Read your subjects requests. You've been so busy with Marcy you don't have time for your kingdom." He leaves and I go around the kingdom fixing up a few issues.

When I get home it's around two. I sneak upstairs and into my bathroom. I take a quick shower to get mud off of me then I go and get in bed. I look over on Marcy's side to see she's not there.

I look on the night stand beside it and see a note. I pick it up and I start reading it. It says:

"Hey, Bonnie look I think I know what you where getting at earlier. An I have gone home, and maybe it's time you and I take a break... Just for a bit... Maybe things will be better with out me... Ya never know... I mean... If you don't want too, I'm sorry... I think it's best... Please don't be mad or upset or angry... I think it's best for you not to worry about me... I like you... No... I don't... I love you... And you know I want you to be happy, safe and protected and with me around... That wouldn't happen. Because we are always getting into trouble... But I'm sorry... So yeah... Bye Bonnie...

~M"

I put the note in the drawer and just lay there. When I look back at it I don't tear up, I don't feel any anger, and no sadness. I love her to... But was that really the best decision? Will I be happier? No, I can't be... But what if she wants this? I know she said she loves me and I know I love her... I guess I'll have to try this for a while...