Hold my hand and dont let go (bts x depressed reader)

The Sun Who Turned To The Moon

Hoseok pov

I notice that I forgot to take my pills I look at myself in the mirror I notice my ugly self. 

I place the pills in my hand taking as much the bottle has and took it.

I saw the room get dark and felt dizzy. The last thing I saw was Y/n.

Y/n pov

I was looking around for Hoseok since he hasnt been around and Yoongi said he knows what to do when hes drunk. I went into the bathroom to see him fall down, I caught him. "HOSEOK!" I yelled. I carried him to where all the guys were. I saw Jin looking directly at me.

"What happened?!" I hear Joon yell rushing to check his pulse. "Its slow...call my dad now!" I rushed to call his dad. All the guys went outside to wait for the ambulance Jin stayed with my. My knees we're stuck to the floor and tears roll down my face. I moved the hair out my face to tell me "Hes okay, hes still alive." He put my face to his chest. "He helped me through the bad times and the good...I just want him to be alive." I told him tearing up even more. He rubbed my back and the guys came in. "The ambulance is here." Joon said, "Hes alive but has a breathing mask over his face, he took an over dose but it wasn't a lot." I went outside to see him in the car, "C-can you stay with me?" He asked holding up his hand slowly, I held it and the man closed the door and were on our way to the hospital.

Flashback

Y/n pov

"Sweetie-" I cut my mother off, "Mom! Dont go not today not tomorrow!" I told her holding her hand. I saw her neck was in a cast..."Why'd you do this?!" I said knowing of her suicide, "Sweetheart dont turn out like me, stay strong, and goodbye, my darling." Her withered hand went numb and I sat there with no shine in my eyes. I hear the flatline and it was all a blur sound.

End of flashback

Yoongi pov

I swiped the cups away in fury, I was mad and sad Hoseok tried to kill him self with no intent of understanding what would happen . "Hyung stop." Jungkook grabbed my arm to stop. I pulled back, "Why Jeon?!" He wraps his arms over mine to stop, instead over being obeying I pushed him to the wall, he punched me to come to my senses. He grabs me "Hyung! What up with you?!" He grab his shirt and push him to the couch again. I grabbed the chair and hit the mirror. "

ARGH!" I yell, "Hes dead! And its my fault! If I was there even more with my best friend I would of been able to save him!" I said with a panting breathe with my fist curled up. "Yoongi hes alive." I looked at him with red eyes, "I know that! Its because of his attempt!" He stood there shocked. "If I were there enough I would of saved him..." I told him, "Im a coward, Im nothing Kook Y/n knows that, she knows that hes my best friend she probably thinks this is my fault!" I yelled out to him.

Jin pov

I stood there just asking myself what the fuck is Yoongi doing? He broke a perfectly used mirror. I went back into the kitchen to see Tae eating all the cake with Namjoon, and Jimin, with their faces all puffed up. "What are you three doing?" I asked curiously, "Eating our feelings while we talk about Y/n." I think the everyone's okay now to hear Hoseok okay. "Oh Im in!" I told them I grabbed a fork ate the cake. "Does anyone know a secret that Y/n has?" I asked, "Hmm Oh! She said this thing wasnt a big deal but she like to um hehe, master-bate." I almost chocked on the big piece of cake I had, "No way!" I hear Taehyung say, "Hold on did you make her watch porn in the 7th grade?" I heard Jimin ask Namjoon. "No...I had an offer and she accepted it..." he explained, "YOU WERE IN HIGH SCHOOL SHOWING PORN TO A MIDDLE SCHOOLER!" Tae yelled.

Y/n pov

I was in the same room as Hobi, his eyes were closed hopefully sleeping..."Dont leave my side please..." I whispered sniffing my nose. I held his cold hand, Namjoon's Dad came into the room. "He's a lucky one, this is his third attempt...wait was it an attempt, Y/n?" He asked, "I-I don't know I was looking for him and saw an empty bottle that was supposed to be for pills..." he mouthed the words "Oh" does he know what prescription drug he used? "Ugh please be quiet." I hear Hoseok say. "Thank god your okay." I told him. "Yeah...*tears up* Im sorry...Y/n" he said with tears forming on in his eyes.

"I'll let you two be." Namjoon's dad leaves the room. "What, why?" I asked all concerned, "Im sorry for making you worry, Im sorry for letting you see me like a suicidal fool." He sniffs his nose, "Hey hey dont be-" he cuts me off, "Yes I have too, I may never stop. You see me as an imbecile." He says tears rolling off his face. "I can stay here by myself you can go, dont start waste your time on me." He turns his body making his back face me. I walk out the room and outside of the hospital. I see that no one came to check on Hoseok, they probably know hes okay. I call an uber on my phone headed to the house party.