Hold my hand and dont let go (bts x depressed reader)

Their Back Round Story

Hoseok pov

I stayed outside hoping to see someone I know like Namjoon. As I sat there still smoking I saw Joon walking speak of the devil. "Hey Hoseok." He waved to me. "Hey." I said back with a fake smile. "I was wondering what was that medication you always take that me dad gives you?" I stared at the sky with me cigarette almost finished, "I've only told 3 people this, and he just found out today." I said blows my smoke out. "It okay if you don't wanna say it I mean-" I cut him off, "Its anti depressants and anti anxiety pills they're made into one." He stood quiet. "Now *blows out smoke* do you have alcohol I could drink? C'mon tough guy I know you have a flask." He tossed me the flask.

"You know drinking isn't going to help you neither is smoking, why wont you take another pill? Its already 12 am?" I knew that it does, "You think I dont know that! You do understand that I drink to get rid of bad memories! I smoke to get rid of my anxiety! I take pills because my minds just so fucked up that I gave up on finding a therapist! You know how many I've seen?! 6! 6 therapist! And look at me Im still a stuck shit that ones mother left and beat." I told him in anger, the medication clearly wore off I haven't felt like this since I was 13...he stood there still in silence. I've calm down now.

I saw that my cigarette was gone to the end I drank the whiskey and started to talk to him, "*sigh* As a kid you understand that carnivals are supposed to be fun...but every time I set foot on one I get the vision of my mother leaving me and pushing me in on the ground... I was only 12..." I explained to him. "Hey Hoseok I think you shouldn't be so loud..." he point at the door and I see a sleepy Y/n "Yah~ I dont think yo...should! Be so loud.Se~ok. *Yawn* Imma sleep in the bench." She walked to the cushioned bench and on fell right on top of it.

"Well see you later I'll be with whiskey whenever you need it!" He said having another flask with him. I went to Y/n and picked her up bridal style to the bed. I placed her in bed and sat down next to her laying body. I was about to lay down and sleep on the floor when I felt someone grab my shirt. "Dont go..." she said and tears well down her face. I kissed her cheek and whispered I'll never leave your side and slept next to her.

Seokjin pov

I was listening into the door and wished I heard moans! Instead heard a Tragic love story 🤧. I just wished she would love me back but who would love someone that cant even do anything right?

Flashback

"Did you hear that Jin got sent to a foster home?" I heard a girl whisper "Yeah! His dad and mom died in that fire and now be has nothing!" Later on after school my foster parent said someone would take me...it was a rich family! But as I soon came to realize that they don't really care about me...

"Heya Jin," I saw my younger friend Hoseok tell me, "Hey Hoseok...I just figured out something I have this thing called depression. Ya I know its weird and I got it because of how many people treated me like complete shit!" I told him smiling. "Yah...its not going to be that bad...I mean your 'parents' could help you..." he told me and patted my back.

End of flashback

Taehyung pov

I texted Jung but seemed like he didn't care "Yoongis drunk I think he needs help..." I sent him the text but he never responded..."Taehyung~" I heard Nams voice say "Nam I don't find interest in you and I think we shouldn't be friends like this anymore." She slapped my face and furiously put on her clothes then headed out side.

Next day

Y/n pov

I woke up knowing that it was a school day. I looked at the time 5 Am seems like everyone else is awake. Jins making breakfast and Jungkook is...I put my ear to the wall next to me moans? And its his? WAIT HOLD ON! IS THIS BOY?! I opened the my door and saw the door had a creek opened I slowly opened the door and saw Jungkook under the bed covers and he was clearly jerking off...I went behind him and WOAH that's something...NVM LET ME GET ON TASK! I saw his phone and it was a pic of me..! Hehe let me scare him! Thats what he gets for jerking off of a pic of me! I put my pointer fingers out and pushed them into Jungkooks arms. He nearly had a heart attack. I sprung up turned and saw me..."HAHA I sae you jerking off of a pic from me!" I slapped my knee and kept laughing..."Your not mad? He said cover his erection under the sheets. "No I am but I dont care that much keep jerking off I could care less." I smiled and closed the door on my way out. I had to tell Hoseok!

I ran into the room and sat on top of him on his lap. I jumped up and down to get his attention, "Yah..." he tried slapping my arm but he was to tired, "Jung-" he cut me off with a kiss from no where..? "Can that make you stay quiet now just text me it..." he put a lazy thumbs up and feel asleep. I quickly blushed red and felt my hear quicken. I ran downstairs to tell Jin. "SeokJin! Yo! Hoseok just kissed me!" He was squealing with the utensil in his hand. "This is great!" He said, "Shit! Nvm you cant do that!" I looked confused at him, "I'll just say this every guy in the group is in live with you including me!" He said..."I don't believe you~" I told jim but wanted to "Fine go ahead your choice." He told me flipping the pan.

"Are you going to school?" He shrugged "I dont know...schools just a bad time to be at." Jun said, "I have a question...do you know anything about Taehyung anything at all?" He stared out the window, "Yes I do many to be of fact." The handsome man smiled, "Taehyung's parents...he never knew them...hes been struggling with increasing anxiety which is really bad so he likes to take it away by doing the thing. Tae never really understands or get people hes suicidal most of the time. He was adopted by a drunk who...who didn't ask his biological daughter for her consent...he kept doing that and it ended up with a death. Hes been through a lot and hes always full with anger towards his dad so he likes to be in fights." I sit there in shock to her his story.

"Ho-how did you know all of this?" I asked him, "Im his longest friend...anything else you want to know about the others? Except Jimin hes the only one I dont know the most." I wanted to know about Yoongi I told him. "Oh Yoongi? Hmm Oh! Sadly his dad beat him and his mom left him. Yoongi was sent on the streets at age 13 I took him in. You may already know this but he too suffers from high levels of anxiety more than Tae...he usually crys in the bathroom stalls. Yoongs self harmed 4 times he burned his arm. He tells me that his feelings for you are as big as the demons that live inside his mind." I looked down "Oh.."

"Hey hey here have a pancake." Jin told me. "I'll just go back up stairs to my room thank you though..." I walked up stairs to Hoseok. I opened the door and saw...Abs...he was putting on his shirt and saw me at the door and covered his body in fear. "AH!" He yelled. "SORRY SORRY!!!" I slammed the door and knocked this time. "Can I come in this time?" I felt my cheeks burn up. "Yeah..."  he was wearing a black shirt black jeans and a grey jacket. "Huh well you've got um nice abs..." JESUS IM JUST MAKING THIS MORE AWKWARD! "Thanks you've got...a beautiful face." I saw him blush.