Hold my hand and dont let go (bts x depressed reader)

Taehyung's Apartment

Y/n pov

I saw him jump...my senses kicked in and jumped down to save him. I felt the cold salty water touch my skin. Once I entered I search for him. He was struggling but I swam to him but once I got his body he wasn't moving. I grabbed him rushing to shore. I landed him on his back preforming CPR. 1-30 I count pumping his chest and giving two breaths. He wasn't waking up. "Do you have the hospital on the line?!" I yelled. "They said they're almost here check his pulse." Namjoon told me. His pulse was slow...it only pumped every five seconds then it went slower to 7. I started to tear up. I kept doing CPR on him but it wouldn't work. "Y/n stop! They're here now!" Yoongi took hold of me. They checked him and everything. "Hurry! This mans almost dead!" Once of the medics told the other. I felt dull. "Let go. Please." I told Yoongi I took the bus to go see Taehyung. I just sat there in the bus my wet hair and uniform. I got off the bus and headed inside. I had to wait for an hour. Then they let me in.

"He's unconscious" they told me. "The water took up most of his lungs...but he's okay." I got worried...seeing the monitors around him. "Im sorry..." I said as I held his hand.

Then Jin cane he  noticed how tensed up I was. "Is he in a coma?" Seokjin asked. "I don't know...they don't know yet it's too early to say so." I replied. The nurse cane in. "Sorry but your time is up..." she said. Jin and I walked out and waited for the bus. "It's not your fault..." He told me. "What do you mean?" I responded. "Its not yours fault he tried to die its all of ours." He explained to me. "If...if only we told you before hand about him, and if we helped him we could've helped him." I see that he tears up, I place my hand on his back. "Why-why are you even telling me this..?" I asked him, "Because you should at least know because we were keeping this as a secret from you...and he really loves you and would want you to know.." Right after the bus honked to let us know that it was here, we got on and I slowly fell asleep on his shoulder. I woke up noticing that he left to his house. So I stayed awake until the bus stopped at my place, I got out and headed to my apartment. I then opened the door and went to my room onto flop myself to bed. Feelings of frustration and anger go to my brain...its all because of them that I couldn't help him. I walked outside my apartment and walked to Tae's apartment. I remember the PIN number to open the door. As I did that I expected it to smell like girls...but I was wrong I saw two bottles of whiskey on the floor empty and the smell of his scent in the air. I saw his phone on the night stand still charging...he probably texted from his old phone. I see that the phone was getting notifications.

iMessage
Nam
Taehyung! Answer my calls!! 😡

iMessage
315---
What? Not texting back pussy...

iMessage
315---
Pfffft you really are a no good for nothing person. Your sister probably thought the same thing and was so embarrassed by you thats why she killed herself ㅋㅋㅋ

I put in his password and saw the unread messages. He always seems to be anxious in his text, I thought. I went to my messages and he was about to send something but he didn't. The text read.

"Dear, Y/n I love you and I will miss you,
Even though we still never got together as friends,
I still dreamt of us being with each other till the end."

I tear up as I read that text. I looked around his room to see what was here. I opened his cabinet in the bathroom. A paper was there I opened it up from its ball shaped and read it.

I made it into its form again and walked outside back to my apartment. I cried myself to sleep just wondering if he's okay...

Next Day

Jin pov

It was lunch so I went into the cafeteria seeing the guys. I sat next to them they all look so suspicious. "Jin, Tae-" Y/n walked furiously towards up and slams a paper in front of us. "Why didn't you guys tell me?!" She said with anger. "Jin's the only one who told me the truth! Your so fucking stupid for not saying anything to me! Jimin! Why? Over all the people I know you didnt tell me shit! You know what fuck you!" She knocks the food onto his lap and everyone saw I walked to her with Jungkook. "Hey Y/n hold on." She turned around with tears in her eyes. "What?" I stopped in our tracks and gave her sometime "You shouldn't stay this mad at us, he didn't want you to know either." Jungkook said. "I'm not mad at you guys I'm just really mad a Jimin, he's one of the closest to me in the group and didn't tel me anything..." she said looking down. Jungkook and I hugged her to get better.

A/n: Hey ppl :) I'm sorry to post things late again I have a busy schedule. ;-;  ❤️ love you all and thank you for 8k reads