Hold my hand and dont let go (bts x depressed reader)

When Will You Stop?

Jimin Pov

I looked in the mirror in the morning to see how I look, as always it was just my hideous face...I didn't understand why girls like me. I opened the cabinet just to get the blade I use. I always wonder when will I stop. How can I stop cutting? When will I eventually stop? I feel the pain go to my wrist. I always did it because I feel like it's a away to punish myself for making mistakes or just to feel like I'm human, it makes me feel better somehow. I bandage it up letting the blood just go through. I put on my uniform and go off to school.

I saw all of them there, I didn't want to smile, I didn't want to do anything about this moment but I had to just to show that I was okay, that I'm fine. I form a fake smile and waved to them. "Hey." I said, "Yah Jimin Oppa!" Y/n comes up to me and hugs me. She's never called me Oppa before..."Ugh you've looked so sad and down...how about we hang out after school?" She's noticed...? I didn't expect her to notice that what I've been feeling.

Lunch

Yoongi pov

I felt really anxious after class I knew I was going to cry and have my body shaking for 10 minutes so i ran to the bathroom stalls. Staying in there crying quietly. I just really needed someone to hold but it wouldn't be any help.

Y/n pov

I went to the roof top because that where we hang out now to just talk. I saw Taehyung trying to drink half a bottle of whiskey with Jungkook. "Yah! Stahp it!" I ran up to them trying to release the drinks from there hands. "Dumbasses! Jin! Why'd you hand them the alcohol?" I said agitated. "Aish just let loose and join in the fun, it's almost Spring break." He insisted. I crossed my arms and headed sat down pissed off with them and just watch them attempt to chug the bottle.

After school

After them chugging the bottle they got a bit drunk and slept through the class. I waited for Jimin from the gates. Seeing him I waved but his head was down the whole time...he reminds me of myself.

Flash back

Y/n pov

"Hey girly." I ignored the boy just looking down to avoid any eye contact. My mind was just telling me not to talk anyone it would just freak me out. "Yah talk to me! Are you deaf?!" He grabbed my shoulder dropping my books and papers onto the ground. Still just looking down I pick them up.

End of Flashback

Y/n pov

He finally looks up and makes a smile and waves his hand back to me. As he got to me he seems different. I feel as if he's lost the shine in his eyes just like Hoseok..."Hey are you alright?" He jolts as I touch his shoulder. "Yeah, no I'm fine..." I look directly at his eyes seeing that they're no longer filled with happiness. We walk to the place we first met at the park specifically the bench. I looked back towards him but he was just looking down playing with his fingers. "Can I see your arm?" I said feeling as if he hasn't gotten any better but worse. He pulls up his sleeve letting me see his many cuts than before. "Jimin...why are you just lying to everyone you know we're here for you..." He puts a smile on his face but makes it into a solemn look, "I-I don't really know anymore, Y/n. Seems as if everything is starting out to be okay, but it suddenly changed. It's getting worse by the day, I don't know when I would stop or how I could. It's the only reason why I'm still alive and why I can act the way I act." He explains to me. I stopped but seems like there hasn't been a time he has. I place my hand on his arm, "These cuts aren't going to help you, later on you would regret it...there's always a way to see the world in it's hidden form." He still had a solemn look to his face. He nods and stands up to go back to his home. We departed and both of us were left alone. I sighed as I bounced my self on my bed. I checked my phone from boredom. So I texted Tae.

Y/n: Feeling any better? 👍👎
T:A little just thinking about somethings...💭
T:Do you think anyone really loves me? Does anyone really care about this moment?
Y/n: Ofc I mean all of care about you...♥️
T: Hehe gud too know
T:Hbu anything up🎶
Y/n:Things are well...I just feel like something's gonna happen...
T: Make sure it's a positive thought! Well gn 💫🌙

I laid there just blanked out. I felt a lump in my throat. I knew something bad was going to happen sooner or later.

A/n

I'm feeling  just a tiny bit better like 3% I'm sorry if this chapter's bad. Also I might have to take a break. It's just better for my health to get better. I hope you understand. Love you all.