Hold my hand and dont let go (bts x depressed reader)

Apology

Hoseok pov

The time passed and the streets were still awake. I was tried and still with Y/n. She wasn't asleep shockingly.

"Wanna go home you can stay over of you want. I know Jin would scold you if you came in late." She said laughing. "Yeah sure thanks for the offer." We walked out to the rain still pouring. I put up the umbrella and walked with her to the bus stop. She was quiet didn't really say anything. All she did was grab my hand and held it.

Jimin pov

I raced home. I ran and I ran being upset. I opened the door and closed it throwing the umbrella to the side and ignored the fact I was drenched in water fell on my bed. I started to cry forgetting that Jungkook and Tae were here. "Is he alright?" I hear Jungkook's voice peek out, "Not gonna find out if we don't ask." I hear the bedroom door open. I didn't want to deal with them and let them know so I quickly flipped them off. Crying on my pillow and going off to sleep.

Y/n pov

Waking up and remembering last night is just even more shit seeing Hoseok left and gifted me candy, it was cute of him to do that. I stretched out my arms and fell on the couch. I stared at the ceiling. Just thinking what I should getting Jimin or what I should do. After thoughts and thoughts I got it! I should bring Jimin to the festival where we just celebrate really nothing just for fun. He really just needs sometime to just have fun with us. I texted the other guys so we all can go to the festival. I decided I would get dressed two hours before it started. I heard a knock at the door. I open it as usual and see Yoongi.

"Oh Hi~." I said and waved at him. He waved back.

"Can I stay here for a while, I mean we can just go to the even together." He explains.

"Yeah sure I don't mind." I say back to him. Yoongi took off his shoes and laid back on to the couch. I sat down next to him. He sat up just to make room for me.

"So...I heard about Jimin..." He says as I sat down, "He's sensitive okay? Just make sure you can explain." I blew a raspberry as he said it.

"I tried but he just cut me off and left...Ah~ Yoongi what am I supposed to do?" He came closer.

⚠️Just saying small smut ahead. Get ready kids⚠️

"You make sure he doesn't leave and make sure he doesn't cut you off. If he tries to leave make sure you grab his hand hold it, and don't let go. Never let go of his hand hold it tight. Make sure he can sense you care." He told me demonstrating it. I turn towards him we stared in each others eyes for a long time. I don't know why but, I came closer. Then our lips locked. I could sense his shock, but he kissed back. The kiss was deep and passionate. His hand on my thigh he began to stroke it. I pulled him in making me fall onto my back with him on top. Yoongi placed his hand on my breast and played with it with one hand. I lightly moaned. I could feel his smile form when he heard my voice. This was cut off though when someone else knocked on the door.

We stopped and pushed Yoongi off. Seeing that he was hard I gave him a pillow and a cold water bottle to help. I was glad I didn't wear lipstick so it couldn't be noticeable that I just made out with Yoongi. I opened the door and saw Tae and Jungkook this time.

"Let me guess you guys wanted to come to me to talk about Chim and to hangout?" They both nodded.

"Oh! Y/n. PFFF. Is that saliva on the corner of your lip?" Jungkook said I immediately wiped it off with my arm. I went back to them and let them enter.

Time skip (im lazy sorry) :(

Jimin pov

"So she's going to be there?" The three heads nodded. I groaned, I wanted to see her...but I don't know about her herself. Would she want to see me? I didn't know. I went ahead and put on my denim jacket and white hat then went out with the others. The event was being hosted at the park.

"Where are they?" Namjoon and Hoseok asked. We looked around and saw them looking around too. Hoseok grabbed Yoongi's arm and dragged both of them to the rest of the group. Leaving me and Namjoon walk towards them.

"Hey, don't worry about it, okay?" He said slapping my back. I just softly smiled and looked down. We catches up to then and saw small black vans. I looked up seeing Y/n...

"Uh-H-hi!" I said in the most embarrassing voice I've heard myself say.

"Good to see you too..." She smiled and didn't do the slightest thing not even shake hands. The group just went to get food and play games. I wanted to be left out trying not to get involved. When Y/n and Yoongi were going against each other in the basketball ball arcade game, she turned towards me and smiled, then went back to the game. I wanted to just go up to her and hug her just hug her tight.

Later on when the fireworks started Y/n grabbed my hand and went to a section where no one was.

"I know what I said at the bar okay? I just want to tell you that I'm sorry. The truth is. The truth is that I like you Chim. I don't think I should be with you though. I practically am so torn and broken- I just can't have you. I don't want you to reflect on my actions. You don't deserve so much negativity. You should get someone who makes you happy inside and gives you a surge of amazement." She explains I didn't really know how to reply to her. This is as much as she spilled out her feelings.

"But you're the one who makes me happy! You're the one that brings my bad days to good days. I miss you Y/n I miss the fact that every time I see you I can't help but go up to you and just want to hug you, I want to hold you tight. I'm nothing for you. I'm ugly look at me. I would rather just die. So..." I start to ball up but laugh at my embarrassment. I roll up my sleeve grab the razor in my back pocket. I was about to make the incision but she quickly grabbed the blade with her bare hands causing her to get injured.

"Stop! Jimin listen to me! I love you! Can't you see what I'm saying?! I love you but I hate the fact that I'm not able to give myself to you to have! I came here to apologize not to see your suicide! I don't want you to go Park Jimin. Never leave my side! Because I Love You!" Her tears stream down her face ignoring the pain on her palm. Once she said it the fire works ended. I pulled her in. I didn't have to explain what I felt you could just tell by the way I hugged her. It was enough to tell.

We went back to the others and Jin got mad. He noticed Y/n hand and cleaned it up and put bandages on it.