Deep Monologues

My humanity

Born into a heartless world that I'm forced to call home.
A world when we pretend to love, care, and hope for others when we really don't.
I was told at a young age to forever be kind and don't let your light be put out.
But how can I if no one in this world ever gives a damn.

Each act of kindness I lose one shred of my humanity.
My kindness turned into a major flaw, pushed around picked on. Heck! I couldn't even say no when they asked me to do their homework!
The more they ordered me around, the more I kept my mouth shut and let them do whatever.
The more my light is being put out and it gets harder and harder to breath everyday.

Eventually.....my lights been put out and my kind deeds stopped. I soon joined the world of selfish behavior and greediness. Growing up my eyes were stapled open to experience every traumatic event that took place in my sad pathetic life.
My mouth taped shut so I couldn't say a word or called for help.
My legs and arms numb to the touch that I can barely move or feel any pain.
Emotions drained out of my soul so that I become nothing but a empty vessel.
My ears gone deaf to the sympathetic words of a human being.

Soon enough I had to be chained down. Chained down by the past, my actions, the flaws, and insults that sunk deep into my flesh and bones.
Everything's my fault and it always have been and will always will be.....
It hurts at first but you soon get used to it.
Sitting there in the dark nothing to say no light in my eyes and no cheerful smile plastered on my face.
They took it......all of it.

The last shreds of my humanity......they took whatever that made me who I am.
The girl who had so much hope, love, and dreams.
Now sits in the dark cold room suffering from the never ending pain that she feels.
Sometimes she screams out in agony because it was too much for her to handle.
Sometimes she doesn't and sits there emotionless and broken.

She's nothing but a broken girl.
A girl that will never be able to be pieced back together no matter what type of glue you used.

Why?......because the glue is like her trust from you and she comes back together with your trust but once you be disloyal that's when she falls apart from the glue you gave her.

So.....thank you Society.....for destroying the girl I used to be......