Deep Monologues

Daddy

I once remembered a man.....he was kind, compassionate, and caring. He loved his kids and his wife like any other regular married man does. That man was my father. I remembered all the fun things we used to do.....or somewhat remember.....

We stopped....after a while....my father grew unhappy as days passed on years even....until he became violent....that man wasn't my father....everyday I was scared to go home because the man who claimed to by my father yells and hurts me.

I want my old daddy back......the one who would smiled and make me laugh....

I remembered one day.....he kicked me and my mother out....he was mad like always....shouting and yelling....screaming that he was used and lied to......my father looked broken.....hurt......but yet filled with anger.....he broke nearly everything by the time me and my mother ran out of the house.

Why did my father acted like that.....until I found out years later.....my mother never loved my father.....I didn't feel anger towards her....I felt shocked surprised hurt.....and I hated myself for that.....I hated that I didn't get mad at her because she was the one who destroyed my life and happiness.....

Instead.....i was forgotten.....I was heartbroken.....I was alone....I was only 7 when I felt these emotions......because that woman took everything from me....thanks to that I was nothing but an empty vessel.....

My dad took my sister....my mother had kids with another man.....for me.....I didn't have a home....because I don't belong in both houses.....

If anything....the house I do belong....was the one we lived under as a happy family of three.....and I'll forever live there.....because I was nothing but a past for both of my parents.....and I'll wait here.....till they open their eyes.....and see how their past grew up to be the future and they missed out on everything......

And Daddy....will soon realize his little girl....Is not so little anymore.....and he'll be devastated knowing he didn't see her grow up to be a woman she will be in the future.......

He'll missed all of the first moments of his daughter's life....her first car....job....boyfriend....even the special moments.....prom....friends....college...

My father will soon realized how much he missed in my life.....and by the time he does I will no longer be living under his roof.......

Aren't you proud of me Daddy?.....I grew up without you.....I survived 18 years of my life....it was hard.....but I did it.......

Then again.....I am 16....hopefully you can open up your eyes sooner.....before I live you forever.....

Daddy.....please....open your eyes....