Deep Monologues

Monsters

A/N the italics is the person speaking in her head the bold is the monsters in her head
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They won't keep quite.....
They're too loud.....

Shut up, shut up, shut up!

You can't escape us.......

No! Leave me alone! This isn't me!
It can't be! It's just my imagination! None of this is real!

It's as real as the sadness and pain that's inside you child......

You're lying! Get out of my head! This isn't real!!! Get out, get out, get out, get out!!!

They won't leave me alone.....they won't.....i can't get them out of my head....I just can't!

You can't get rid of us.....because we've always been living inside you....

No no no no no!?!!? Just shut up and leave me alone!?!?

Each night was a battle.....in the morning I felt like I lost the battles. I didn't want to leave my bed. I didn't want to see my family or anyone that is outside of my bedroom door. Why?....because I don't feel like me anymore.

Stop!!!! It hurts!!!!

The more you fight us the more you suffer.....

Go away!!!!!

Never....

Non-stop arguments going through my head. Each day getting darker and darker to whatever is inside of me that's eating me alive.

No more......I can't do this any longer.....

You've always been the weak one child.....giving up so easily.....

They taunt me.....insulted me.....they even make me imagine things I don't want to imagine!?

Every time I'm near a human being I don't feel like they should be around me. They need to save themselves from me stay away from me! The more this progresses the more I feel less and less human. The more I feel like something that's been clawing it's way out for ages. Something dangerous......

You can't win.....you never will.....because I'm the monster in you.....the monster you are.....

That's not true!!!!!! I'm not a monster!!!!

You sure child.....because they see something else.....

They were right.....Everyone I known looks at me differently then I thought they did......and it becomes clearer to each day.....

The fear I see in there eyes but they stand brave and tall pretending not to be afraid......thinking I wouldn't notice at all......when I look at myself in the mirror I no longer see the girl I was but someone else.....

Everything I see and feel isn't the same anymore......it changed when I found out what's going on....

I hear nothing....no sirens.....no gunshots.......no screams.....but the whispers of my monster inside of me....

I can see them....all of them....I've stopped fighting them long time ago....because there was no point in doing so.....however one stands out the rest....the one monster that I see in the mirror each battling day.....

Her......