Deep Monologues

Nuisance

Since the beginning we were close to one another. But as time passes by I'm starting to feel like a bother. Not just to your but to everyone. You all put on a mask to hide it but I know there's something that you and everyone else wants to tell me.

Am I a problem? Do I annoy you? Am I becoming an overbearing nuisance? I'll understand if you tell me it'll save me from the pain and the doubtful-ness I have towards myself. I'll leave you and everyone else along I promise. I'll just go back to being myself like I always been.

Sorry if I was such a burden I didn't mean to become one. I guess wasn't made for human interaction whatsoever. I'll be in the background staying quiet like you wish me to. I'll be fine being alone that's what I've come accustom to. I'll be fine I swear. It'll hurt at first but it'll be nothing new.

I guess one less problem to deal with yeah? I've always been to other people's problem so you don't have to sugarcoat it at all. I can handle the harsh saying and the truth of my reality. It's fine really. I'll get lost, I'll stop participating with friend activities. As long I know how you feel towards me gives me closure.

Before I leave I wanted to sorry for everything. From here on out I'll never be a nuisance in your life and you won't hear another word from me. I swear even after we graduate will have no communication whatsoever. As long I know you are satisfied and happy and to see you to go on with your life with no burden upon your shoulders.

I'll just simply walk away and we can both pretend we have never met before. Pretend the memories we had didn't exist. Pretend the good laughs we had was nothing. I'll do whatever you say and be out of your sight, life, and future. As long it pleases you then I'll be fine.

Until then.....I hope you tell me soon as to what you feel because I'm slowly starting to give up again for humanity. And I'm starting to doubt myself and hate myself for the person I am but for now.

I'm sorry.....