I'll Keep This Secret For You

Chapter 75

Peggy's POV:

By now it's the next morning and nothing has changed. We've still had no news on (Y/N). All the kids are still cot cases. We haven't slept. Steve is an absolute mess and doesn't know what to do. They gave us the hospital room that Luke was getting fixed up in to stay in because it was the middle of the night, plus Isla was point blank too terrified to go home in case her dad was going to be back there again to hurt her too. Great.

"I don't no what to do." Steve cringes and runs a hand through his hair as Isla lays curled up against his chest sucking her thumb, finally dozing off. "Should I stay here incase something happens with (Y/N) or do I go look for Bucky? I mean I have no idea where he is or what kind of a state he's in. What if something happens to him? What if he's lost. He bolted because he was frightened I'm guessing so what if he has no idea what's going on? And what about the leaked files? People will be after him. I need to solve it."

"You do what you think you need to do. But just remember, I'm here, I can look after (Y/N) and the kids. Bucky is out there all alone, probably lost and confused and scared," I tell him. "And leave the files to me for now. You've got enough on your plate. If I have time I'll try straighten things out. Come back to that later, there's more important things going on right now."

"But I don't want to leave all of this with you." He huffs and shakes his head, conflicted.

"Leave what to me? Sitting in a bed with children?" I chuckle and nod down at Theo and Sarah, asleep in my arms and Luke asleep beside me. "Go find Bucky. I know you want to. If there's any news it's not like there's anything we can do that the doctors can't anyway."

"Thank you Peg. I'm sorry." He sighs as he stands and gently lays Isla beside me. "I'll be back later, hopefully when either of us have some good news."

Bucky's POV:

"No!" I hear someone shout from behind me but I'm too focussed on what I'm doing and don't react quick enough because suddenly I feel an even heavier weight on my back than before and two hands holding onto my shoulders and pulling me back so hard that I actually am ripped away from the woman and shoved to the ground.

I take a few seconds to register what is happening and in that time there is a large figure looming over me, sitting on me and pinning me down. Somethings different, somethings off. This man is just as strong as me. No one is just as strong as me. Wait a minute... I've seen this man before, I've fought him before. But I always succeed, I always win in fights, so why is he still alive?

Frustration takes over so I try to grapple with him but to no avail. He clearly has he upper hand with his position. I never loose. I don't like this. How could I have let my defenders down?

With my arms pinned at my sides he grabs a fistful of my hair and yanks my head back so that it hits the hard wooden floor boards making me see stars.

"Come on Buck wake up!" They shout in a growling voice.

"Ah!" I wince at the pain of hitting my head and also the sudden overwhelming sense of familiarity that I feel.

Then it all hits me like a tonne of bricks and the realisation of what I  sure that I have just done sinks in. I'm not the Winter Soldier, I am Bucky Barnes. I freeze for a second, my body pretty much going limp with exhaustion and fear and I snap my eyes open.

I peer at the person above me to see who it is as the whole thing is a bit of a blur before realising that it's Steve. Oh no. If he's had to wrestle me to the ground it must be bad.