Lasting Love

Jordan

Jordan picked up the loofah and finished washing her. He wasn't gonna lie it was taking all the restraint he had to concentrate on bathing her ,to not strip and climb into the tub with her.

He thought she was beautiful as a teenage girl Jesus she'd become an even more gorgeous woman. Her body curved , and filled out in all the right places and he cursed his traitorous penis as it twitched and strained against the material of his boxers .

He pulled the plug on the now lukewarm water and helped her stand before wrapping a towel around her. Jordan felt Jordy's eyes burning into his back as he knelt down to dry the bottom parts of her legs before sliding her sleep shorts up and over her hips.

Jordan felt his hands shake as he made his way to her waist with the towel. He'd never done this before.

Emily never allowed him in when she was showering , fuck they'd never showered together , only ever had sex in bed . That should've been his hint that their marriage was a mistake. There had been no intimacy.

Emily insisted that he sleep in the guest room after DJ was born citing that she didn't want the baby to disturb him when he was home.Disturb him? How? DJ was his son , his child too and never a disturbance.

Shaking off his thoughts Jordan continued drying her when he felt Jordyn's fingers in his hair balancing herself

He looked up to find her smiling down at him.

"I've never done this before " he admitted softly.

"You never did what ?"

"Bathed someone other than myself or DJ " Jordan explained as he helped her put on her pajama shirt.

"Thank you J "

Jordan pulled her into his arms "No thank you . Joe never .."

"He never what baby ?" Jordan murmured

"He never bathed me , never let me bathe him.Many times he slept in another room . Especially when Marc was little he avoided intimacy like the plague"

He led her to her bedroom where they sat down on the bed as he picked up a brush and began brushing her hair.

Tears streamed down Jordyn's face.

Looping his arms around Jordyn's waist pulling her closer to his body.

Jordyn leaned into him as emotions she hadn't felt in a very long time overtook her soul.

"Tell me "

"I don't know how to do this J."

"Yes you do baby . "

Jordyn wondered how he could even say that.They were kids when they were together for the first time. It was juvenile , adolescent ,innocent love

"You were my everything Jordan and that carried on even after I had Marc as much as I wanted to hate you I couldn't .No matter how fucking hard I tried my heart ached for you.I thought I was over you.I thought I could replace you.I got married because I thought I loved him enough he could replace you. I married him because I loved you enough to let you go.But every time I looked at him I saw you. Every time he touched me I felt you ! FUCK! Every time he made love to me I fucking imagined it was YOU ! "

Jordan never before heard that tone from Jordy .Sure he'd seen her pissed . They'd fought often enough over his loyalty to the band and her as the band began it's rise to fame.But this .. this was something completely different. This stemmed from a build up of love ,hatred and confusion.

Jordan shifted so that he could pull her onto his lap.

"I don't know how to respond to that baby other than bluntly.Apologizing won't do fuck all this I do know.I can't bring back the past , I can't have a do over because if I did I'd do everything all over again just differently. I would've never left you. I was so stupid to .I wouldn't trade DJ for the world but it was one fucked up trade off but now it doesn't have to be. My boys , our son somehow helped us find our way back to each other and life doesn't give you second chances . This is a gift baby and I sure as hell will not refuse it."

Jordan pulled her closer and pushed a stray strand of hair out of her tear filled eyes , framing her face with his hands

"Jordy I am telling you right here and now I am not going anywhere not this time. We were meant to be together and I fucked that up. Never again baby never . Our journey isn't over unless of course you want it to be . My feelings after all these years have not changed other than strengthening when I saw you again. Never in a million years did I ever think or expect that it was you on that damn site they roped us into. I have loved you half of my life baby and no matter what stupid boneheaded decisions and choices I've made I know now they should've included you. Even more should've been you . "

Instinctively Jordyn pressed her lips to his the same as she'd done hundreds of times before .

"You've always had my heart and you still do.It's yours Please don't break it "

"I know I have some major repairing to do and if you'll let me I will make your heart whole again."Jordan murmured against her ear

They laid together in silence as Jordan held her against his chest stroking her hair.

Jordy drifted off to sleep feeling more safety and comfort in those few moments than she had in the last two decades.

Jordan tenderly kissed her temple murmuring "I love you baby "just as he too felt a sense of comfort and contentment just as he too drifted off to sleep.