Lasting Love

Jordan

Jordan gazed into her eyes with fear, love and hurt in his eyes. "I never thought of you as anything but my future wife and the love of my life. If I had known what was going on I could have tried to stop it or at least get you out of that situation. You were innocent in everything and I am so sorry for what happened."

"J I never said ...I may have thought it but you did nothing wrong .It was who ever is torturing us with these fucking messages.Do you know how fucking good it felt to feel your arms around me again? How fucking bad I didn't want it to be a dream and most of all how much of a cruel fucking joke it would be if it was goddamn dream.Do you have any fucking idea what it was like to wish you'd hold me again ? I know you had nothing to do with that now but it still doesn't hurt any fucking less."

"Seeing you again was like I was seeing a dream but I was awake. I thought my eyes were playing tricks on me until I realized it really was you. Holding you and being close you  is all I want right now next to getting know our son. I don't want to let us go. I want to work on us and see where we go. I love you with every inch of my heart and I always have." Jordan  told her  with so much passion he began to shake.

Jordyn chuckled softly "How long did it take you to figure out it was me ? I had no idea while we were messaging back and forth that "Nate " was you. And Nate ? Really!? "

"I didn't set up the profile. DJ did and I thought it might of been you but I didn't want to get my hopes up" Jordan admitted with a slight grin

"Fucking kids I swear Marc set mine up.After we started interacting I felt such a strong connection it scared the shit out of me. There was this inexplicable pull and I had no idea what it was.Until I saw you in Fall River. God I wanted to run that night , I wanted to slap you fucked up thing is I wanted to be in your arms again .Then the song.. it took everything in me to not totally break while you sang it ."

"That's why I changed the set list. I wanted you to know I saw you"

"It wasn't originally there? My editor had gotten an advanced copy of the setlist for report purposes which I never looked over beforehand. I don't always follow what artists force for interviews and I wasn't changing that for you. Although why was the reason for your "retirement " not addressed? You just released Unfinished a few years ago why the sudden itch to stop it all?"

"My reason was I wanted to find you and try to make things right. I wanted to figure out what happened. I didn't feel fulfilled and I hated it." Jordan sighed

"Wait a minute  damn Jordan you want to throw away your talent for me ? Um hell no I can't  no I won't let you do that.  You have worked half your life for this and I know a solo career was one of your dreams "

"I'm not throwing it away. I've used it for many years and I just want a break. I want to be as normal of a person as I can be and live my life with the love of my life and my children. I just need a break from all the attention for a while."

Jordy clenched her fists in frustration, she wanted him to hold her , she wanted to touch him He looked  so lost

"So why was it classified as a retirement?" Jordy countered

"I didn't want the public to know yet." Jordan  sighed, defeated as he  inched closer to Jordy  and wrapped his arms around her. "This is my happy place and I never want to let you out of my arms again" he whispered gently kissing her forehead.

"Funny for the longest time I hated the sound of your voice but then I looked into our son's eyes and I missed that voice so much I felt sick.I couldn't stop myself every song you released ,every interview you were in I had to see or listen to it. It became like a drug ,an anxiety one that helped me to relax and feel calm again. I also used them as a tool so Marc knew your voice in case you came home but then I got scared he'd ask a million and one questions about who you are.I wasn't ready to face that.So I stopped listening to the music , stayed off social media and tried my damndest to forget about you. Then Marc got older and it was like a door to the past ."