Lasting Love

Jordan

Marc checked his phone realizing he hadn't heard from his mother in quite awhile.

Where the hell was she and more importantly was she with Jordan ?

Marc was really trying to get to know the man who procreated him but he didn't know a lot about him and google only seemed to pull up meetups with groupies over the years , his divorce from DJs psycho mother, the disbanding of his band and his solo career that had been hit or miss because of shit management.

"I'm surprised I haven't heard from DJ yet. I didn't realize it was getting so late." Jordan said as he looked at his watch. "Would you like to come back to my house or would you like me to take you home?" He asked

"Oh shit Marc" Jordy murmured absently as her phone rang .Turning to Jordan she smiled "Come back to my place get DJ to meet us there. I think it's time our boys hear a little story J don't you ?"

"I'll meet you there baby." He grinned, his dimples flashing.

Getting ready to press talk on her cell Jordy hesitantly smiled back "You know I never stopped loving you right ?" she whispered shyly

"I never stopped loving you either" he smiled back at her

Jordy answered their son's call as she wrapped her free arm around Jordan's waist

"I'm fine Marc .I know we've been hashing a lot out that needed to be talked about .Listen I'm making your favorite tonight for supper. Yes,I am no you're not in trouble , yes we're having company , no it's not a special occasion. Yes it's your father. I don't care what you call him he's still your father. Marcel so help me ... You better be I love you too Marc "

Jordyn crinkled her nose "Jesus he is exactly like you ! " She grumbled exasperated.

"I can't wait to see how the boys get along and what are you fixing for supper?" He said with a wink

"Somethings never change Jesus Jordan you should weigh like six hundred pounds as much as you think about or eat food . And I'm making Marc's favorite .I hope they get along I mean usually brother's find some kind of connection somewhere don't they?"

"I hope they do and I can't help being a foodie. I was thinking of getting into the restaurant business while I'm retired from music." He snickered

"Hopefully not as a cook "  Jordy teased "I know they've spent time together at school already and now that Marc knows who DJ is he hasn't been as big a pain in the ass .Did DJ settle down after he figured out Marc wasn't a pod person?"

"Yeah he calmed down and no I won't be the chef. I'll just be the owner. Smart ass" he chuckled

"Thank god you almost burned your mother's kitchen down making mac and cheese when we were fifteen! Oh did you see the old theater in town  is being converted into something other than a theater? It's a shame unless of course they make it into something worthwhile"

"I was wondering what they were doing there. I hope it's something cool. I might make a few calls and see what's going in there."

It hit Jordyn then just how successful Jordan had become and she began to wonder why the hell he would want someone like her. Without working three jobs she could never make ends meet. Marc worked his first two years of college , they'd always struggled to keep things afloat . She'd had to sell the home her late husband purchased right before they'd married.She'd rented the small apartment ever since . It wasn't much but it had been sufficient enough for her and her son without being overwhelming in repairs or monthly bills. Even now Jordyn hoped her freelance writing would keep the bills paid once Marc ventured out on his own in a few years.

Jordan could see Jordy was deep in thought. "Care to share what you're thinking sweetheart? You look like you're concentrating pretty hard on it"

"Just hoping they get along " Jordy murmured hoping he'd believe her This one of the few times in her life Jordy felt not worthy of the man in front of her and believed the hateful words others had spewed at her so many times.

"I'm sure they will but that wasn't what you were thinking about. You can tell me baby."

Jordyn brushed it off as if  she didn't hear him "I gotta get moving if I want to get supper done.I'll see you later " Jordy murmured as she took a step toward the door.

Jordan stopped her before she got to the door. "Everything is going to be okay baby. I believe it with all my heart and I love you." He whispered before he kissed her.

"I love you too " Jordy murmured distractedly

The short walk to her place was still enough to give her time to think.Jordyn knew her son needed a relationship with his father but at what cost? Marc was an adult which meant a relationship wasn't mandatory between herself and Jordan.Jordyn heard his brother's words echo in her head intermingling with her own father's as she climbed the steps into her home.Pulling her phone out Jordyn composed a text

Jordyn

J A story  came up at work that I have to cover   I can't do dinner tonight I'm sorry .Maybe you can set something up with Marc , DJ and yourself ?

Jordan

How do you have a story to cover when the closest concert is in Ohio? I understand you're scared that Marc and DJ won't like each other or that I'm going to let what happened in the past happen again but it won't. I'm not leaving you again. I love you too much to lose you again and I want to get to know our son. DJ and I will be there in 20 minutes baby

Jordyn

Jordan DON'T  I can't fucking do this okay !? I've never been good enough for you and I never will be. I'm just a writer who was once a girl that got to watch you become the amazing man you are , who wouldn't trade the part of yourself you left me a couple of decades ago.

Jordan just stared at his phone reading the message over and over. How could he respond to that without making things worse. "Jordyn you're the most perfect woman in the world for me. I understand you need some space for DJ and I will come over another time when you're ready. I never stopped loving you and I never will."

Jordyn turned her phone off after asking Marc to stay at the dorm for the night, She'd never been good enough for Jordan and she knew it. Marc had never been a mistake and she knew that but she'd had so many plans so many dreams that she'd put aside when Jordan began to get famous with the band and when she found out she was pregnant those plans were put on hold indefinitely.

They'd wanted so many of the same things or so Jordyn thought until fame had taken over. Jordan was not only older now but he'd become famous ,earning the ability to have the life they'd dreamed of and with that ability came power. The power to win over their son and the power to make her feel as if she were nothing,