Lasting Love

Jordan

I  felt her in my arms again and I felt like I'd come home.

Finally

Despite my drunken stupidity the fight with my son sobered me up immediately.

The walk home although short had my thoughts all over the place

One thing I knew was that I needed the love of my life back.

Sooner definitely then later I hope

Jordy looked at me with those eyes the ones she'd used so many times to see right through to my soul.

This time was no different.

She was staring at me , looking to see if I'd lie or back pedal what I just said because she thought I was still drunk.

What a shit decision to make. Blowing a decade of sobriety because I was butt hurt .

If anyone has reason to be hurt certainly was not me.

I'd caused the hurt and I've always known that.Deep down in places that should've never felt guilty I did.

I'd left with my band for the road promising Jordy I'd be back and we could begin a life together.

I'd scrimped and saved for a ring but was too stupid to give it to her before I left.

Maybe that would have kept my dumb ass inline.

Maybe it would've kept my dick in my pants

Maybe I would've kicked Emily to the curb like she deserved

Maybe I can right all the fuck ups I've made

Or maybe I'm just as fucked up as my son thinks I am.

"J?"Jordy whispered pulling Jordan out of his own head as thoughts of his fuck ups consumed him.

"I'm right here baby "

"Why'd you drink tonight ? I know you've been sober for several years."

"Fuck honestly I don't know. Moment of weakness  ,hell stupidity.I honest to God don't know ."

"Is it because of me ?" Jordyn whispered

"No baby. I don't know what in the fuck I was thinking.I wish I knew and I wish Jim would've stopped me. That old bastard should've known better."

Jordyn stood and got ready to leave .

"You seem to be better now . You're not bleeding and your more with it than when I got here.I think my work here is done.I'm gonna head out.I'm going home so if you need anything just text me J " Jordyn told him softly

"Jordy please stay ? " Jordan's voice , pleading and vulnerable.

Jordyn never heard his voice sound so lost or seen the man before her appear so vulnerable.

They were both hurting for so many different reasons.

Jordan's eyes bore into her soul

"Baby  please "

Jordyn sighed as her shoulders fell.

She couldn't help the need she felt to be there for him.

She didn't want to be this easily swayed but she felt her resolve slipping.

Fast

When Jordan reached for her just as he always had , his way of asking for her to soothe , comfort and show him affection.