Lasting Love

Jordyn

Jordy cleared her throat trying not to cry again. The words and angry accusations playing over and over in her head as she remembered what his brother and cousin said to her .Chris at one time was one of the ones who'd have kicked Jordan's ass if he would've screwed up with her.Even the slightest of things and Chris was ready to kick his ass but suddenly he became her biggest enemy and she wasn't sure why.

"We're going to find out who did this to us and they'll pay for it. Don't worry"

"J that's not going to give us back the time we lost. Look at all the time you lost with our son. Marc has asked me over and over for years who his father is and why he was never part of our life. I had no idea what the hell to say . How the fuck do you explain that to a ten year old who thinks his father didn't want him? That he was a mistake and shouldn't be here?"

"Marc is not nor ever was a mistake. We can't get that time back, but we can spend our time now together and our time in the future. We can be a family like we were always meant to be."

Jordy swatted at another traitorous tear. She hated crying hated being vulnerable but even more so hated showing it. Long ago every emotion was shared with the man in front of her with no issues but now she felt vulnerable and broken.

"How Jordan ? Seriously how ? You can't expect to just show up , waltz back in like nothing has happened , no time has passed . It doesn't work that way. Maybe we're being naïve "

"It's going to take work but I'm willing to do it. For you. For both of you. I never stopped loving you and I want to get to know my son.  I can't make up for what happened but I can prove myself to the both of you. You are my heart and always will be."

"Yea I'm sure your family is gonna be on board with that and what about DJ ? I doubt he's gonna be all over the moon about this.J think of all the upset this is going to cause . "Jordy whispered emotionally

Pushing against him Jordy felt like everything was going to fall apart again. Terrified to let him in again. Yea they'd been intimate again but could she open up more again . Her body had always been his from the time she'd given herself to him but her heart had suffered so much trauma Jordy wasn't sure it could survive him again.

"I don't care what my family thinks and DJ is already asking questions. It'll be an adjustment, but we can make it through it. I can't let you go again. I should have never let you go in the first place." Jordan murmured  pulling her close.

"You know Marc has too and he's been a lot more uh demanding about it.This can't be some lame excuse to repent or make yourself look better because of the past Jordan I'm not a fucking puppet or pawn. My world shattered when you never contacted me after you left. Then I found out I was pregnant, and I had a plan. I wanted to surprise you. I got a frame for the copy of the ultrasound that I planned to give to you when you came home. I mailed another copy along with a picture of the positive pregnancy test to you. When I never got a response, I figured you got it and didn't want anything to do with us."Jordy pushed against his chest ,looking down at the floor. Not wanting to break she refused to look at Jordan. Meeting Jordan's eyes would break her, they'd always been a window into his feelings  showing every emotion, Jordy was terrified what they showed now

Jordan lifted her face up so he could look her in the eyes. "Jordyn I can never fix what happened but I can try to make it up to you and Marc. I looked for letters from you every damn day but..." He trailed off deep in thought.

"J I'm afraid to let you in.I mean we made love again " Jordy trailed off realizing his sudden silence ..."Wait but what ?J what ?"

"Maurice told me every time I asked if you  sent a letter that I should forget you and that you didn't care enough to keep in touch. I always gave him my letters to mail to you. That piece of shit!" Jordan picked up his phone and furiously texted his private investigator.

"Jordan you were my everything then. You had been from the time I realized how much I loved you . You consumed me , every thought , every dream I had included you.And after I knew how you felt about me , after we became so much closer you became so much more.There was no way in hell I stopped caring. Why the fuck would he even say something like that ?"

"I don't know what he was thinking but I'm going to find out."

"Are you sure you want to open up this huge can of drama Jordan ?Hurt feelings ?Do we really want to put our boys through that ?" Hasn't DJ had enough with the shit with his mother and how fucking vindictive she is ? I know there's no do over option but I don't want you to feel obligated to figure this out or be a part of our life out of some fucked up sense of obligation "