Too good to go (A Kingsland Road fanfiction)

Part 21

Josh's P.O.V.-

The days without Amy are restless, my heart shattered into a million pieces that day, and I honestly dont think it'll repair.

"Mate, you need to eat. You haven't eaten in two weeks." Connor says worryingly.

"I'm not hungry." I mumble quietly, my voice still shaking from the previous amount of crying.

Wow, its like the first words I've said in two weeks.

"You're sure? Please Josh. She'll come round eventually. You've just gotta try." Connor sighs sadly, before leaving the kitchen.

But she won't. I know she won't.

As soon as he leaves my tears are restored, and I collapse into tears again.

That's all I've done these past two weeks.

I can't do this without Amy, it hurts so much.

I can't survive.

I quickly grab my coat that was draped around my clutched body on the cold kitchen floor, and stand up, my legs suddenly aching. I pull open the kitchen door, receiving weird looks from the other four boys and Nadine, and rush out the front door, pushing it open forcefully before slamming it shut.

"Josh! Josh, wait up!" Jay shouts, running out the front door, also slamming it shut.

I didn't realise it was chucking it down, and even though my coat hood is protecting me, I still get soaking wet.

"Josh, where are you going?" I hear Thompsons strained voice this time. I turn round to see both of them. "Go away! Leave me alone! I'm going to see Amy! I know she remembers me, she has too!' I scream.

"Josh I-"

"Go away!" I scream to Jay again.

Jay's P.O.V.-

As I watch my former band mate, brother and everything crumble down on the floor, my heart breaks.

He doesn't deserve this. Not Josh.

"I just want her back." He cries into the floor, tears rushing down his face. "I always will. I need her. You don't know how much I love her, no one, no one understands!" He screams. Thompsons in tears, and he's that person that never cries, I'm just trying to stay strong, but inside I'm dying, we all are. All of us boys, and Nadine, she was like a sister, a ray of hope, only to be taken away.

"Josh, please. Just come home." My voice strains, though it cracks in the end.

"Please. Josh, she's done with us. She doesn't need us." Thompsons tells him, hiccups evident in his words.

"No, she does! I know she does! Now go away, just leave already!" He screams. Not me or Thompson moves, we can't.

"Go!" Hr screams again, and I turn away.

"Thompson, come on."

"But-"

"Let's go." I insist, as I grab his wrist and spin him as we start to walk away.