Too good to go (A Kingsland Road fanfiction)

Part 23

Josh's P.O.V.-

I stare sadly at the wall, such a stupid mistake, that could've been solved so easily.

Its been a week. But I'm not at home. I couldn't be. Connors not either. Amy's back at home with Matt, Thompson and Jay, Nadine's at her mums, Connors at his cousins, and I'm at my mums. I wonder what Nadine told Connor? Did she say how long it'd been going on for? What did she say about me and Amy? It can't be that bad, Amy will take me back. Won't she? She's carried on with her treatment. I still pay. I should more than ever now. Its so horrible. She couldn't look at me. Neither could Connor. Yes, I had a thing with Nadine, but I didn't love her. It was Amy. Only Amy. Apparently she's doing okay now, the treatments helping. I couldn't be happier, but this is worse than the time she nearly died, or when she couldn't remember me. That, I couldn't help, her pain was her own, this is just...torture. Knowing I broke a little girl to pieces. She'd do anything for me, and I broke her heart.

Jay's P.O.V.-

"Babe, babe come on. Smile." I say, as I jump down next to Amy on the sofa and place my arm round her.

"You'll get over him eventually." I reassure her. She turns to me and gives me a look of confusion, as if to say Really Jay?

What? I'm not good at this, emotional crap.

"Okay, so maybe you won't...Well you will, Just not for a short time. Hey, Connor got cheated on too, maybe you should go speak to him. You both got cheated on by the same people, it'd help." I chuckle, and I see a small smile form on her lips.

"Come on, just...Smile yeah? Love you babe." I smile, before getting up off the sofa and walking back into the kitchen, where its just Matt.

"Hey Matt, what's hanging?"

"Josh and Nadine's throat if I had a chance." He grumbles, his fists white from the tension of balling them.

"Woah, Woah calm. Why are you annoyed?"

"Because Josh's broken Amy, as well as Connor. This could split the band up. I dont want that! I'm pretty sure no one else does too, and I'm sorry but we might have to kick Josh out."

"What!?" I say, nearly spitting out a glass of fresh water that I'd only made about two seconds ago.

"Honestly Jay. I don't think Connor and josh together would be a good match, I dont think any of us with him would. Either he leaves, or the band either quietness down, or just quit altogether. I dot think any of us can do this." Matt explains, his heads in his hands.

"Seriously Matt. Just quit? I don't think so. We've come way too far, Connor will get over it, and then we'll be fine."

"But Jay, you dont get it. You dont know what its like. This is tearing us apart, this- this could be the end." Matt says quietly.

I dont think I've ever seen him this depressed.

"And Connors done nothing wrong. Just Josh, so-"

"Hold up, hang on a second." I interrupt him. "Connors done nothing wrong? What about that time he broke Josh's nose and beat him up, the time he had sex with a fifteen year old girl?" I say, proving a point.

"Why are you sticking up for Josh?" Matt questions me, looking confused.

"Because they're both as bad as each other!" I argue.

"Yes. Yes, maybe they are. But at least one didn't use a girl as a sick joke to keep him occupied whilst she was dying of leukemia." He growls, obviously annoyed.