Love To Hate You | ✔

04

Ruby

What do I say? I mean can I say anything? I was left there to bruise and bleed, I wasn't looked after.

How is it that the one person who is meant to love you, doesn't?

It has been a couple of hours since I've been home, and I wish I never did but then I would need to face Lucas, Olivia, Jason and now Lia.

What has my life come to?

I sighed sitting on my bed, I need to find a way to go to school tomorrow and hide the cuts. I got up and took a shower, locking the door, slowly taking every piece of clothing of; 'I want you dead'

I stood in the shower, letting the water droplets hit my skin with some force. I close my eyes, blocking everything out noticing the silence. Nothing.

My heart was still beating, still fighting.

Thinking to myself, I made it. I made it through another day and I can do one more. I'm doing just fine.

After my shower I walked out, throwing on a pair of pajamas slipping into bed and closing my eyes. Wanting to forget today, and to start fresh tomorrow.

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Can I go back to bed, I regret coming to school. Everyone is so loud, and they are still talking about what Lia did yesterday – which I am still angry about.

I tried so hard to cover my face due to the bruises, but it was merely impossible. I didn't look where I was going as I heard a groaning noise, I slightly looked up to see Lucas.

"Red?" I sighed, "Not now Lucas." I moved to the side only for him to block me, "Lucas, I need to get to lesson. Move." And yet he still didn't budge.

"Lucas." I sneered. I kept my head down, so he wouldn't see. "Jenson look at me." He demanded, but I refused.

"Red, I said look at me." This time he grabbed my chin and moved my head to meet his eyes, only for him to gasp a long with everyone who surrounded him. I pulled him away and ran off, but I felt heavy footsteps behind me.

No! not now, no one can know.

I stopped behind a tree, hearing the footsteps were fading. I was panting, and trying to hide the pain which was threatening to surface. I waited a few minutes.

I sighed, finally alone, "Red?" I held my breath, I felt like panicking. How did he find me? I thought he left.

"Lucas, please not now." I pleaded. "What happened to you? Was it Olivia? Lia? Jason?" I gasped.

"No! it was none of them. Just leave it, I fell that's all." I tried to sound convincing, but no I guess it didn't work.

"I don't believe you." I scoffed, "Look you don't have too." I walked away, wanting to curl up into a ball wanting to leave this earth.

"I want to fix you." I didn't stop, I carried on walking.

"Red, I'm trying to help you!" He pleaded. I stopped turning to him.

"Why? Why are you doing all of this? I'm the loner girl who got cheated on, the loner girl who can't even keep one friend, the loner girl whose family decided to go downhill, too much is wrong with me Lucas. You can't fix me because I'm not broken, I don't need to be fixed okay. I don't need your pity Lucas."

Shit! Why did I mention family! Gosh Ruby you're such an idiot.

I started to walk away, hoping he blanked out and wasn't paying attention to anything, "Who says I'm pitying you?" This made me stop abruptly, "Excuse me?" I raised a brow turning around to see his stern face.