Fate ~ Shawn Mendes

Chapter 24

Shawn took me out of the party and Thomas had arrived in just under five minutes from when Shawn called. Mind you, I wouldn't want to be long when you have a very angry and frustrated Shawn Mendes yelling down the phone line saying it's an emergency.
"Clara?"
I blinked rapidly realising I had entered my own little world again, zoning out on everything around me.
"Did you hear what I said?" Shawn asked taking a seat next to me in his couch. I was curled up in the corner seat with a throw around me, freshly made cup of tea in my hand.
"Sorry. I-I wasn't listening." I admitted.
"Do you want to go to bed or stay here for a bit-"
"No." I immediately cut him off. "I don't wanna go to sleep." I blurted out.
Shawn moved closer to me and picked my body up to set me back down on his lap like a baby. I snuggled my head in the crook of his neck as I listened to his breathing.
"No one, Clara, I swear to you no one is going to hurt you whilst I'm here. I won't let that happen." Shawn said and kissed the top of my head.
"But it did." I meant to say it to myself in my mind but it came out as a low whisper and I knew Shawn had heard me.
"I know you were with me at the party, but next time I won't leave your side. Ok?"
I gently nodded into his neck as his arms tightened around me and I felt completely and utterly safe.
"So, do you want to sleep or stay here?" Shawn asked again.
"I don't care, I just want to be with you." I whispered and Shawn kissed my head again holding his lips there longer this time.
•••
"Now isn't a good time Andrew."
I opened my eyes and rolled over to see the space next to me empty. I pulled back the comfort of the duvet and wandered out of the bedroom and into the kitchen.
"There's never a good time for you anymore Shawn! Don't you see how much she's holding you back?"
I was about to step out into the corridor but I jumped back and hid behind the door frame to continue to listen to the conversation.
"Don't say that man!" Shawn jumped in. "I need her much more than she needs me."
"You done think she's just using you?" Andrew asked.
"I can't believe you'd even say that. I always thought of you more as my friend than my manger. Why are you being like this?"
"Because we've worked too hard Shawn! You've worked too hard! Don't let some girl get in your way!" Their voices started to raise.
"You'll wake her!" Shawn snapped. "She isn't just some girl to me." I could hear Shawn swallow from where I was stood and I awaited his next choice of words. "I'm in love with her."
A tear strolled down my cheek as I allowed a small smile to appear on my lips.
"Can we go talk somewhere else?" Andrew asked.
"Talk about Clara or tour?" Shawn hissed.
"Both." Andrew replied.
I heard Shawn sigh loudly and he tapped his foot in the ground.
"Give me a minute." He told Andrew and I heard his footsteps nearer the door to our bedroom.
I moved back to the bed and sat on the end with one leg dangling whilst I held the other at my ankle. Shawn entered and gave a weak smile as he looked shocked to see me up as he closed the door.
"Please tell me you didn't hear that?" He whispered sitting next to me.
I nodded slowly and Shawn squinted his eyes shut and shook his head low.
"But I agree with him." I whispered.
"What?!" Shawn's head snapped back up. "You can't be serious?"
"What if I am holding you back? That's the last thing I want to do, your at the peak of your career! Imagine what you can accomplish without someone as pathetic as me keeping you from your dreams."
Shawn grabbed my hands and altered his seat so he was looking directly at me.
"You are not pathetic. Your the most beautiful person I have ever met and I've never loved someone as much as I love you. And I want to continue to love you for the rest of my life. Yes my dream is to sell out arenas and make my music and light up someone's day with one of my songs." He said passionately. "But. I also have another dream. And do you know what that is Clara Reynolds?"
I shook my head as my eyes became watery.
"Too fall in love, marry the love of my life and raise a beautiful family as beautiful as her. As beautiful as you." He smiled and tears started to fall down both of our cheeks.
"I just couldn't live with myself if I kept you from something." I managed to whisper.
"You could never." He said leaning our foreheads against each other. "We're half way there Clara, we found each other and I don't ever want to lose you."
"I don't want to lose you." I replied.
Shawn placed both his hands at my face and kissed me passionately like never before. Like this was the last time we would ever be together. Just before the kiss got to something we couldn't do right now I pulled away and looked into his beautiful brown eyes I would never get tired of looking into. I leant back in and placed a kiss on his lips before whispering "go" to him with a smile.
"I'll be back soon." Shawn said walking out the door waving one of his weird waves to me as he went.
As soon as I heard the lock of the front door click it's all too familiar sound I buried my head in the white duvet sheets and cried silently until I fell asleep.