Fate ~ Shawn Mendes

Chapter 41

"Do you want it?" Shawn asked.
"Do you?" I turned round to face him.

There was silence between us, our world has been turned upside down in less than a minute.
I wish I knew what Shawn was thinking, so that I could say the right thing. I didn't want to overwhelm him more than he, more than we already were.

"Is it mine?" He asked rubbing the back of his neck and taking a seat on the toilet.
I furiously darted my eyes from the floor to meet Shawn's hazel gems, although there was some slight shimmer. Shawn was crying.

"Of course it is." I said starting to fiddle with the necklace Shawn had given me. It was a small diamond with a rose gold tint inside, my favourite colour. I sighed loudly and ran both my hands up my face and into my hair, tugging harshly at my strands hoping it would extract the answer to this situation from my brain.

"What am I going to do?" I asked. I leant against the closed door and closed my eyes to stop the tears flooding out.

"We." Shawn said.
"What?" I asked dropping my hands to my side and making eye contact.

Shawn patted his legs and held out his hands, creating a come here motion with his finger.
I slowly walked over to Shawn, who picked up my hands and pulled me gently onto his lap.
His arms cane tightly round my waist and I rested my head against his shoulder as I placed my hands over his.

"I love you Clara and having this little baby inside of you isn't going to change that." Shawn started to whispered to me as he cradled my body. "I know we're young, and I know your scared because I'm scared to."

"But I don't know what to do." I cried lightly not wanting Andrew, Geoff and Teddy to hear.

"You can do whatever you want to do. Whatever your decision I am going to support you because I love you, I want to spend the rest of my life with you and grow old with you because I believe it's fate we met that night. I believe it's fate that we are mean to marry and have beautiful children, whether that's now or in five, ten, twenty years time. Im ready when you are."

Shawn's words made me cry as I sniffed in is cologne and grabbed his shirt into my fist, scrunching it as hard as I could.

"I need to know what you want." I sobbed. "I want to know if you want this or not."

Shawn placed a kiss on my forehead and brought one of his hands to my jaw, pulling up my head so I met my crying eyes with his. A tear came down his cheek and I swiped my thumb to rid of it, as he did the same to me.

"If you had this baby, I would be immensely happy but I'm not going to force you into anything. I love you." He said and attached his lips to mine, our lips softly laid on one another's as emotion exploded inside of us.

We pulled apart and Shawn pulled me tightly into his chest. I heard him softly cry into my hair and I pulled away to meet his teary eyes.

"Don't cry." I whispered. "Please don't cry." I repeated scratching the back of his neck.

"This is all my fault, I'm so sorry." He cried wiping his eyes. "I'm so sorry Clara, I promise I didn't mean to do this to you."

"Shawn." I shook my head in disagreement.

"I'm so sorry. I can't believe I did this to you, to us, I'm so so sorry with all my heart you don't deserve this and you certainly don't deserve me, you don't even want it and that's-"

"Shawn I want to have the baby." I said gently interrupting him.

"That's ok and I'll support you through-, wait. What did you just say?" Shawn blinked rapidly up at me.

"I want the baby." I repeated. "I want us to have the baby."

Shawn started to cry again, and harder as a smile grew on his pink lips. "Are you sure?"

"Yeah." I nodded vigorously. "I want this baby." I smiled.

Shawn pulled me in for another tight hug until we were both a crying mess and the others found us drowning in our own tears. Of course we told them, but for the moment we're keeping it quiet and deciding to tell our families when we get back home.

I'd be lying if I said I wasn't scared; I am. I'm terrified. But I'm also incredibly excited and happy to bring a beautiful baby into this world that I get to share with them and Shawn.

AUTHOR'S NOTE:
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