Fate ~ Shawn Mendes

Chapter 28

-3 weeks later-
"I can't believe your leaving." I said as I collided with Shawn's chest for the hundredth time that day.
"You know I'll be back." Shawn whispered and kissed my head as we stood in the airport, cameras flashing in every direction.
"What am I going to do without you?" I questioned staring up into his eyes.
"Flight 4HB90 to gate 14. Final call."
The loud speakers rang and cut our time short.
"I love you." Shawn said and hungrily and passionately kissed my lips.
"I love you too." I breathed heavily pulling away breathlessly before Shawn quickly planted a peck on my lips again and then one on my forehead and walking towards the gates with his bags.
I stood watching as he passed the gate and gave me one last look, a smile spread across his lips and he mouthed the words "love you" and blowing a kiss.
"He never did like goodbyes." Karen, Shawn's mother came next to me. I looked over to the fair haired lady. "He said, goodbyes aren't good. It's what someone says when they're not coming back."
I felt tears prick my eyes at those words and I turned back to where Shawn had gone hoping he would come back and give me one last kiss, but he wasn't. Shawn had gone on tour, for 8 months, coming home for his birthday for a week. What was I to do?
"I've got to get back. You want a ride?" Karen asked me.
"No. Thankyou, I followed behind the crew in my car." I smiled lightly as I felt a hand on my shoulder, one that was meant to be comforting but it wouldn't bring Shawn back.
"Okay my lovely. Come and visit soon, Aaliyah speaks highly of you and I'm sure she'd love to spend some time with you."
"Of course!" I smiled again.
"See you soon." Karen said walking away.
"Bye." I replied and gently waving.
I then proceeded to my car and I put my belt on, keys in the ignition, hands on the wheel. Ready to go. Why aren't I moving? It was like I was stuck in time, watching everyone and everything around me continue with their day but I was frozen only able to watch.
My eyes soon became fuzzy and I couldn't see. Breath hitched my voice and I rested my head on the steering wheel. I was crying.
"Stop it." I whisper shouted to myself. "He's coming back!"
I wiped my eyes and took a deep breath. I pulled my hair back into a messy bun and I started to drive home. I needed to listen to Shawn, hoping his angelic voice would comfort me when I needed him. Lights on started to play and I smiled to myself, thinking of last night when we were both upset we couldn't share a moment like this again for a while.

I soon arrived home and looked around the condo, pillows and blankets littered the ground and plants were knocked over. I should know, I was one of the people that caused the mess. I tidied the apartment up, picking up everything followed by hoovering and dusting. I cleaned the sink, the shower, I cleaned my wardrobe.
What can I do now? The fridge. Damn it it's full. Shawn took me out yesterday to the supermarket and we brought nearly every single item, he wanted to make sure I would eat whilst he was gone.
"I love that man." I whispered to myself and smiled.
I walked back into the bedroom and looked at the bed, the one thing I didn't want to change it clean. I wanted the memories to stay there forever and the smell of Shawn to linger and comfort me at night so I could imagine him laying next to me.
I lay on the bed and brought a pillow to my chest in an act of comfort. I took in Shawn's scent and closed my eyes imagining he was with me right now and before long I was sound asleep.