~If I Just Saved You~

~Hard To Swallow~

I already wrote the first two chapters, this one is another short one they'll get longer soon. Megan x

~Kate~

I could feel tears burning in my eyes falling out in forceful drops, I fell to the floor, my whole body shaking violently. I couldn't believe this was happening, this is why he had been so distant. He didn't love me anymore. I cried even harder, Jamie had been my entire world he'd helped me realise I wasn't just plain Kate and that I was actually loveable. Our memories came flashing back to me as I shook, the first time we met; our first date; our first perfect kiss and when he told me I was wrong thinking I was ugly because I was the 'most beautiful girl' he'd ever set eyes on. He had melted my heart with every word he said, especially the first time he had said 'I love you'.

I had never known love could turn to hate in exactly three words. My heart hurt, I knew it was broken, unlikely to be pieced back together again. Why today? I thought as I remembered today was meant to be one of the best days of my life. That's when I decided I would not let Jamie ruin today for me, who knows when You Me At Six would play a venue near me any time soon. I took deep breaths to calm myself down and once I had stopped shaking I started to get ready again, determined not to let Jamie get to me. I pulled my favourite You Me At Six tee on and looked in the mirror to check I looked decent, despite my eyes being all red and puffy from crying I looked surprisingly good. I applied some make up, not too much, just a thin layer of pale (not tangerine like some people) foundation; my trademark black eyeliner that intensified my vibrant yellowy green eyes and some red lipstick to give me the confidence boost I most definitely needed. The only thing I was thankful to Jamie for now was how he helped me realise that I wasn't ugly, I wasn't a stunner either, but I was pretty in my own way.

I sprayed my favourite Marc Jacobs perfume over my clothes before putting on my shiny black Doc Martens. I looked in the mirror realising I actually looked really nice for once, my make up helped me feel sexier, I fluffed up my long chestnut brown hair. Needing to keep my mind off my aching heart I texted my friend Sarah telling her my mum would be dropping me off at hers at four. Turning back to the mirror I forced a smiled trying to come across happy, I would deal with my shit tomorrow when I spoke to jamie, I was worth an explanation surely?

I turned the stereo off and exited my bedroom, "Muuum!?" I shouted as I thumped down the stairs, "I told Sarah I was getting dropped off at four, you ready to go?" "Yeah just give me five minutes to put my coat on" she smiled as I came into the lounge, "you look gorgeous dear" "Thank you, and why do you need your coat its July?" She was wearing her big thick quilted jacket "Its good to be prepared for the unexpected" she said making me laugh, she was always so practical, I wish I had been prepared to lose Jamie. We got in the car and drove to Sarah's and the thought of seeing her helped me be excited again. Tonight would be epic, maybe not the easiest, but it would be epic no matter what!