- Chapter 12 -

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Pov Nathan
When Jace and I arrived at school the next day, he was dragged away by Emily within seconds. Not that I really cared. For the first time in forever I just smiled at her and walked past her to Simon.
"Wow, you're in a real good mood" Simon said, a bit surprised.
"Yeah, you could say that" I smiled. He inspected me and frowned.
"What happend to you? You were miserable this weekend!" he exclaimed.

"Well, Jason and I talked yesterday" I started.
"And?" Sim asked.
"And well, you know, I answered his question" I said.
"You said yes, right?" he asked and I grinned.
"Of course I did, I'm not stupid"
Simon sighed and went through his hair with one of his hands.
"Dude, why don't you just tell that right away next time?" he proposed and looked at me.

"But I'm glad you're happy"
"Yeah, I just need to survive the week..." I sighed.
"And report back to me" Sim added.
"I want to know every detail about your date, understood?"
"Yeah, yeah, it's a deal" I said and rolled with my eyes. I stared at Jace who was talking to Emily. She couldn't take him away from me. She just couldn't. I smiled a bit to myself. A smile that didn't disappear for the rest of the day.

Pov Jason
"I need to tell them..." I whispered as I paced around in my room.
"But how..? Dad won't accept it... He never will... And mom... I don't know..."
I sighed and let myself fall onto my bed.
"What do I do?"
I looked aside to Max who was watching me from his little bed. He just tilted his head and I groaned.

"You're useless..."

I heard the front door open and close, knowing one of my parents was home. How the heck was I gonna tell them I'm bisexual? That I didn't only fall in love with girls but also with boys? They'll never understand... I just know they won't... Surely not dad...

"Jason! I'm home!"

It was mom. I sat up and gathered all my courage. Max shot up as I walked to the door and followed me down the stairs.
"Mom, can I ask you something?" I asked as she was busy on her phone.
"Yeah, sure, anything" she said and smiled at me.
"What do you think about gay people?" I asked and it was silent for a while.

"Why do you ask son?" she asked a bit confused.
"Well, there's this kid in my school who came out recently and a lot of people react differently" I said, avoiding her look.
"Oh..." she said and thought for a moment.
"Well, I don't really have a problem with them, John on the other hand..."
"I know..." I sighed and looked at Max. What was I gonna do now? Even mom said dad would hate it...

"Hey, you don't have to worry about that" mom said.
"Right?"
"Y-yeah, right..." I stuttered a bit and laughed nervously.
"C-call me when the food is ready, okay?"
"Of course" she said as she followed me with her eyes. I took my phone and texted Nate.

-Nate??
-Can I ask you something??
-Of course what is it?
-H-how did you came out to your family??
-Wait why do you
-Oh
-You're gonna tell them?
-Well, I want to... I just don't know how...
-With my dad and everything...
-Oh yeah, homophobic right?
-Yes...
-That makes it kinda hard, doesn't it?
-But I need to tell them
-I've been hiding long enough...
-You should, but maybe only to your mother??
-For now I mean
-Yeah... maybe...
-If you're really so afraid of the reaction of your dad, you should really plan how to tell him
-Like a strategy
-Maybe hints over time
-It'll take a little longer
-Yes you're right... It just hard for me to talk about, you know?
-I can come over if you want to??
-N-no no, I'll figure it out
-Hopefully
-Good luck ;)
-Tnx <3

I put my phone away and sighed. Then I realised. I just send Nate a heart...

Pov Nathan
When Jace started asking me about my coming out, I kinda knew where it was going. I tried to help him and I think I might have... I sighed and smiled sadly. Good luck, I typed. Hm... I added a smiley so it seemed a bit nicer. Not much later he replied. Tnx <3. D-did he just do what I think he did? I stared at my screen for a while.

"What ya looking at?" Angela asked and took my phone.
"Hey! Give that back!" I snapped but I could see her reading the texts.
"Ooooh" she smiled.
"Someone is really falling for ya!"
I could feel my face turn slightly red as I took my phone.
"It's just Jace"

"Just Jace, the guy you kissed, of course" Angela teased.
"So what now? Pretend it never happend?"
"W-we're going out t-this week-kend..." I stuttered, as red as a tomato.
"S-so shut up"
"What?! No! Tell me everything. Now!" she almost yelled.
"When did it happen?! Does he like you?"

"W-we talked about it and he asked me out, it's no big deal" I lied. It was a big deal. A very very big deal...
"Tss, don't act careless because you do care, a lot. I can see it in your eyes" Angela said and crossed her arms.
"I'm gonna prep you for your date if you want it or not. And after, we're gonna talk about every little detail"

"You're just like Simon" I complained.
"Oh, great! I'll invite him over!" she laughed and ran to the hallway.
"No discusion!"
I sighed and rolled with my eyes. Of fucking course... I touched my head gently but still felt my cut sting. Hopefully it would heal quickly...

I really wanted to forget what that asshole had done to me. I bit my lip and looked at my phone. Jace made me feel things I haven't felt for a while and I liked that. I just didn't want Peter to ruin it... Neither Emily... Because I knew she would do anything to destroy my happiness... All because I destroyed hers, so long ago...

You see, I was her boyfriend once, before I discovered I was gay. I tried to find myself and got a bit sidetracked. Let's just say I fell in love with a guy and kissed him in front of a camera. The picture showed up everywhere and everything came out. The fact I was gay, that I cheated on Emily...

I've always regret cheating on her and I was planning to break up with her but I didn't get the chance... She was broken and no matter how much I appologized, she never forgave me. I felt a tear running down from my cheek and wiped it away. I didn't know I got so emotional about that...

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