I'm NOT a faggot (UNDER EDITING)

- Chapter 16 -

Pov Jason
Finally Friday! I was really looking forward to go out with Nathan this weekend. I was thinking about asking him to be my boyfriend but I didn't know for sure yet... I mean, if word gets out and my dad gets air of this then... Then my life would be over and I would never see Nate again... I sighed and closed my locker. I had a free period because one of my teachers was absent and so Simon and I were hanging out a bit.

"So, what are we gonna do?" he asked bored as hell.
"Don't know, talk or something?" I said while stuffing some books into my bag.
"Alright... So you have this date this weekend, was it?"
"Yes" I smiled and we started walking.
"What are you guys gonna do?"

"We're gonna watch a movie" I stated.
"Wow, cliché..." he chuckled.
"Which movie?"
"Don't know yet, Nate wants it to be a surprise" I laughed. Simon rolled his eyes and laughed a bit.
"That's so typical... Wanna know my guess?"
I shrugged and he turned so he stood in front of me.

"Horror" he revealed with jazz hands and everything.
"Come on, horror? Really?" I asked laughing a bit.
"Nate is scared of the dark, why would he choose a scary movie?"
"Exactly" Simon smirked and turned back around so his back was facing me.

"What do I get when I'm right?"

"Oh you wanna bet huh?" I grinned.
"How about this" he started and looked at me over his shoulder.
"I get every single detail of your date with my best friend if it's a horror movie. And when I say every detail I mean it. Before the movie, during the movie, after the movie..."
He wiggled his eyebrows and I just rolled my eyes.
"And if it's not, you won't hear any of it" I finished.

"Not a single word about it will escape our mouths. Do we have a deal?"
"You bet" he grinned and shook my hand. I smiled but that smile faded when I saw Peter looking at us.
"What's wrong?" Sim asked confused and turned around. He frowned as he saw Peter.
"He has class right now..." he muttered towards me.
"Must be skipping" I shrugged.
"Come on, let's go somewhere else..."

"Jason, just the guy I was looking for!"

Damnit...

"What do you want Peter?" I asked on a bored tone while his friends pulled Simon aside.
"We have some unsettled business" he hissed and pushed me onto the wall. He held me pressed against the cold white bricks but I didn't really resist.
"So we're gonna do this again?" I asked and stared him in the eye. He seemed confident for a person who had already experienced a grave loss against me. There weren't many who dared to speak to me this way after we had a fight...

He grinned and came closer to my ear.
"I know your dirty secret faggot" he whispered.
"I can see how you look at Wheeler... You're so madly in love with him, it disgust me so much I wanna puke..."
He pulled back a bit so he could enjoy my reaction. He knew... How could he knew? Was I really that obvious? I thought it wouldn't be noticeble for outsiders... Peter smirked.

"That's what I thought... You don't want anyone to know about it, do you?"
"What do you want from me?" I whispered and looked away.
"No, look at me" he hissed and took my head to make me look at him.
"From now on you don't interfere with any of my business, even if it's Wheeler related, got it? Or otherwise I'll tell everyone"
I didn't react. He was saying that I couldn't defend Nathan anymore, not if I wanted to keep my sectret...

"I said, got it?" he hissed and pushed my harder onto the wall.
"Y-Yes..." I whispered.
"What?" he asked.
"I got it" I growled and pushed him off me.
"J-just leave me alone already..."
I saw his little minions left Simon and walked after him. I sighed and went with a hand through my hair. What was I doing..?

I closed my eyes as I heard Simon approach.
"Not. A. Word" I stated immediately before even looking at him.
"What about Nate?" he asked.
"You do realize what you just did right?"
"I told you not to talk about it" I growled and felt rage burn within me.
"I need to go"

After that I just got my bag and took off. I needed my space to calm down... I didn't wanna hurt anyone when I was in this state. I didn't have full control over my actions right now... Some people would call it anger issues, I call it rage-mode. But either way it's bad. I mean, I can handle a lot before I reach the point of pure anger but when I do... It's not so pretty for those around me...

I walked up to the bicycle storage but the gate was locked. Well, that's not gonna stop me now. I climbed over the gate and walked up to my bike, swinging the metal horse on my shoulder in the process. I threw the bike over the fence and climbed back over it. Stupid anti-theft regulations... It was still easy to get a bicycle from this place, you just had to try a little harder.

I walked outside the school and jumped on my bike, driving home. I slammed the front door behind me as I entered, not caring where my bicycle went.
"What are you doing home?" dad asked.
"I could ask you the same question" I hissed and kicked off my shoes.
"Oh so it's like that, isn't it?" he asked angrily and pushed me against the wall. He slapped me and didn't even seem to care where his hand would land. He slapped me on my left eye and my head swung onto the wall.

"You and you're anger issues..." he muttered while walking away. Me?! My anger issues?! Was he serious?! He just hit me! I wanted to scream at him but I wasn't sure that would be a good idea. So I just dropped my jacket and went upstairs. When I looked at my phone I saw a lot of messages from Simon and Nathan. I sighed and just stared at the picture of Nate that I took while he wasn't looking. I made it his profile picture in my phone so every time he called or texted me that photo would appear on my screen.

Carefully, I pressed the small green telephone and started calling.
"Jace? Where are you? We were worried" he said right after he answered the phone.
"I'm home, I'm fine. Tell Simon I'm sorry that I ran off like that..." I sighed.
"I just... Did he tell you what happend?"
"He's my best friend, of course he told me what happend you idiot" he hissed angrily.

"I thought you said you were done hiding? That you didn't care what others would think of us?!"
"I-I still do... Nate, please, listen..." I begged.
"No! How can I ever take you serious when all you do is lie?!" he yelled and disconnected. I closed my eyes and felt a tear roll down over my face. I screwed up... I completely screwed up...