If Only

The Dream

After lunch we decided to visit Maria, another friend of ours. We met her at the park and played on the swings and slides. I felt like I was a child again. The park ended all to soon and it was time to go back to Katie's house.

I had a tough time sleeping that night and had to take melatonin. I finally fell asleep at 2:00 am. The next day Ashlyn had to go home because family was visiting. And Katie was going shopping with her mom so I headed over to Olivia's house. We spent most of the time on the trampoline and tire swing. But we also laid under the big oak tree in her backyard as the sun set. I drew the tree with the sunset in the back round.

The next day was my sixth day in town and i was going home tomorrow. I said goodbye to all of my friends. And my dad picked me up. We headed towards my grandparents house. I haven't seen them in a while. I started crying when I saw them........ I woke up in a cold sweat with tears streaming down my cheeks. I ran downstairs and asked my mom what happened. She said summer break didn't start till next week. When I asked about home she knew it was another dream. It was all a dream, and waking up was the nightmare.

My mom was trying to convince me to go to therapy, but I kept saying no. I was fine I just missed my friends. She finally put her foot down and said I was going if I liked it or not. I said fine. And left the room. The next day she took me to the therapist. The therapist said I had anxiety. Like I didn't already know that!!! I couldn't wait to get out of the place.

When i went to school after the therapist I handed my slip into the office and they gave me a strange look. I wanted to scream at them but I kept my mouth shut. And just bit my lip. The office women gave me a late pass. I wasn't the only one late it was the last week of school and almost nobody bothered to come in on time. When I got to lunch my friends hounded me on why I was late. I told them I had a doctors appointment. Some of them didn't believe me. Probably because I just had an appointment last month.