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these four walls

Luke: your POV (diary entry)
"I feel so numb
Staring at the shower wall
It's begun
The feeling that the end has come
And now the water's cold
I tried to eat today
But the lump in my throat got in the way."
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Since you left, I've been having a bit of trouble. I've been struggling to get out of bed in the morning. I feel absolutely numb without you. I feel like I'm never going to be happy again. This felt like the end. I finally got out of bed after 3 days of not getting up. I've only gotten up to use the bathroom. Today I tried to take a proper shower, but I just stood there. I think I started crying but I wasn't sure. The water from the shower just blended everything together. Blurred my vision. I just stared at the wall. Soon the water got colder, I eventually had to get out. I then tried to have a meal...3 days of not eating and I still wasn't hungry. Doesn't matter anyway. There was lump in my throat that forbid me from eating or speaking...all I could do was cry. That's all I've been doing since you've left. Please come back to me.

Ashton: His POV
"In this time I've lost all sense of pride
I've called a hundred times
If I hear your voice I'll be fine"
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"please leave a message after the tone" *beeeeeep* "hey...This feels like my hundredth time calling...I know I might be annoying you at this point but I'm drunk and I miss you and even though I'm saying this while I'm drunk I want you to know that I mean it and I'm not saying it just because I'm drunk. I really miss you. I know i messed up bad but i really want you back. Please...give me another chance. I can't keep doing this without you. You're the only thing that keeps me sane and I don't know how to go on without you in my life. You're my muse...my rock...my everything. Please at least call me back...I need a response...or just to talk this through...I need closure...And I know you do too. Think about it. I love you."

Calum: your POV
"I lay in bed
Can't seem to leave your side
Your pillow's wet
From all these tears I've cried
I won't say goodbye
I tried to smile today
Then I realized there's no point anyway"
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You've been sleeping on his side of the bed recently. Since he's been gone that's the closest thing you have to him actually being there, other than one of his old t-shirts that you refuse to take out of the drawer. His side of the bed still smells like him. The scent is slowly going away and you feel as though you're going to forget the way he smelled. You started crying at the thought. You've now soaked his pillow with your tears but you don't care. You just want him back. You've decided to try to make yourself smile so you pulled out your phone and watched old videos of you and him together. His laugh made you laugh. His smile made you smile. His voice made your heart melt...then it made you sad again. You realized there's no point in trying to smile because he's never coming back. He's gone forever and there's nothing you can do about it.

Michael: His POV (diary entry)
"And I, I can't come alive
I want the room to take me under
'Cause I can't help but wonder
What if I had one more night for goodbye?
If you're not here to turn the lights off I can't sleep
These four walls and me"
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You've officially been gone for 3 weeks and 2 days. You left me for someone else. You never even said goodbye You left a note with a shitty apology written on it. So now I'm writing you a note that you'll never read. What if I had only one more night with You? One night to say goodbye. One night to ask why you're leaving me in the morning. Will you at least turn the lights off before you go? Otherwise i wont be able to sleep...I feel like these four walls are my only company. The four walls that make up the room that I sit in day by day. These four walls that I've talked to for days on end trying to figure out why I wasn't good enough. These four walls have diagnosed me as insane. It's just these four walls and me now.

Hello lovelies! Look! I've written something! It's been a while. I've been through some hard times in the past year or so, so I've gotten a bit more experience with heartbreak and pain. So I think it'll make me a better writer. Also i would like to take this time to say that in calums one shot, he actually died. The other ones are just about him or you leaving for whatever reason. Okay goodbye for now, loves.💕🐧