Always//Tanner Fox

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"Well, what are you going to name it?" She asked, smiling ear to ear

"Kaden" I smiled "Kaden jay fox"

"But we will call him Kade for short" tanner added

"I'm so happy for you guys!" She smiled and jumped up, hugging us tightly

"thank you" tanner replied

I laughed awkwardly "now that is out of the way......let's get this adventure started, shall we?"

She nodded her head and we all stood up to walk back to the house. I felt better now that someone outside of the family knew about the baby. But now we have to make the video about the news for the fans as soon as we get back to the hotel, so I am completely terrified.

We left the house and we went around the city with Maddie until it got dark out. When we left her house, I gave her one of the biggest hugs I have ever given before.
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I felt my heart pound as tanner turned the camera on and I quickly hid my face shyly in one of the pillows as he sat down.

He stared at the camera and smiled "I don't even know how to start" he replied looking at me

I slowly peeled my face off the pillow and sat up "neither do I" I sighed

He looked back at the camera "so, we have a really big secret we have been keeping from you guys for quite some time now" he took a deep breath in "a lot of you have been asking where sky has been and if we split up because she hasn't really been in the vlogs over the past couple of months, you'll catch a little glimpse of her here and there but that's about it.....To answer your questions..." he said lifting a finger "no. Me and Skylar are not split up....we are still very much together and we love each other very much. Neither one of us is going anywhere" he smiled then slightly sighed

I decided to take over because I knew how nervous he was getting "so that brings us to the huge ass secret we've been keeping.....we have been thinking of the right time and right way to tell you guys that....." I sighed "...I am-um I-I am....pregnant" I gulped "this is in no way a prank either. This is real and this is happening, regardless of whether we are prepared or not"

Tanner stepped back in "I know you guys have a lot of questions and I promise we will answer as many questions as we can in tomorrow's video so make sure you ask us some questions on Twitter with the #skyandtanbaby...but for now I think I'm just going to leave it at that....so we will see you guys tomorrow. As always, thanks for the love and support fox fam" he smiled and waved at the camera then pushed the button. I felt my stomach start to turn and I felt dizzy.

What the fans will see is basically a three minute video of us announcing the news with very little details. But they don't get to see the two hours of motivating statements..and tears....and extremely long silences that happened behind the camera. They won't see what we are going through....but they also don't know just exactly how happy I am to have been blessed to start a family with the love of my life.

I look upset and distraught in this video because of the extreme anxiety I get when I think about all the negativity that will be directed towards me and this baby. I want them to be happy for us but I know that we will be frowned upon. People will view this baby as a consequence of our actions rather than a reward....I know this because that was how I felt in the beginning.

I constantly feel like I'm alone in this...even though I know for a fact that I am not. I have Tanner, Jacob, and Bradley...they are always there for me, making sure I'm okay and comfortable. Making sure I don't need anything.....and making sure that I feel like the most loved person in the world.

"Baby? Sky? Are you there" I heard tanner ask as he waved a hand in my face

I snapped out of it and stared into his ocean eyes "I love you Tanner...I just need you to know that"

His eyes softened then a smile slowly crept up on his face. "I know" he replied "I love you" he smiled, then placed his lips on mine.

When we pulled away, I felt a tear roll down my cheek "I miss my mom"

His face dropped and he pulled me in for a hug "I can't believe I'm saying this....but I miss her too"

"My dad says she'll get over it but I don't think she will" I sighed, wiping the tear away and breathing in

"She will. Ain't nobody gonna be able to stay away from that beautiful smile of yours for long" he smiled

My cheeks turned red and I smiled, wrapping my arms around him.