I found you in April

The Revelation

A few weeks passed and Kaori was after being released from hospital. However, she was still sensitive so she couldn't be shocked or do anything strenuous. She was staying at Watari's as was previously arranged between the friends. 

As they had become used to, the new trio of Kousei, Watari and Kaori had started walking around together. They were walking around the park where Kousei and Kaori had...you know...(You guys don't want mushy crap so you won't get it) and her heart skipped a beat as she remembered that perfect night. Kousei however was out of sorts.

Kousei's POV

I hadn't told her. I couldn't face telling her. She had been so happy these past few weeks and I didn't want to be a burden to her. Whatever happens happens. I could feel it again. A few weeks ago wasn't a coincidence. I begged the nurse not to tell her. 

"She can't know. Please don't say anything. Pretend it was stress. I'm begging you."

"Are you really going to do that to her? She loves you."

"That's why I can't tell her. She'll break again."

I suddenly tripped. My legs were giving up on me. I didn't have long. I was gonna collapse again. Why today of all days?

"Woah Kousei! Are you okay?" Watari looked. He knew about my condition. He didn't know everything but he knew what he needed to know. I swore him to secrecy. He was a lot of things but his loyalty was the thing I valued most about him.

"I'm fine." I lied. I tried to get up but I couldn't. My legs had given up. My chest was burning. I felt an urge to vomit.

When I had finished, I stared at the ground. It was red. Blood? That was new.

"Watari...I'm. Feeling kinda. Light-headed." I mumbled before falling into my best friend's arms.

"SOMEBODY CALL AN AMBULANCE!!! HELP!!!" He screamed. Tears were already escaping his eyes.

But in that moment, the only person I looked at was her. She was shocked. Frozen in place. And then, she gained a look of disgust before falling to her knees in front of me and cradling my head in her arms. "You promised." she whispered into my ear. And then I was gone.

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Kaori's POV

Anger. In that moment, anger filled me. Anger at the fact that there was something he hadn't told me. I couldn't bare it. Why hadn't he told me? I hated him for a moment. But then anger turned to anguish. Was the boy I loved about to die? Please don't die. I need to kill you when you wake up. I hugged his motionless body.

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Kousei had sworn Watari to secrecy when it came to his condition. He had told him in the event of a situation like the one they found themselves in arising, he was to do two things.

Firstly, he was to inform Kaori of his condition. This would be done in a letter in which Kousei would explain what he wanted her to know.

The second thing which would also be in this letter would be a request from Kousei. 

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"Dear Kaori Miyazono,

My first love. The only girl I'll ever love. I was just with you but I miss you already. You were so close but you felt so far away. It hurts. If you're getting this, I've succumbed to an illness I've been fighting for so long. That day we met, it was simultaneously the best and worst day of my life. I met a beautiful spirit. An angel. But her wings were broken. In that moment, I knew I loved you. I wanted to tell you so much. But now I can't so this letter will have to suffice.

I've been waiting for the day I would finally meet you since I was about 6 years old. It was at a show for the music school we both used to attend. This little girl waltzed up onto the stage, full of life, with a violin that any sane person would have thought was way too big for you. But it wasn't. The second you played the first note, I was under your spell. But unlike the audience who escaped your hold once the performance was finished, I couldn't. I still haven't 8 years on.

I'm so sorry this is the way you had to find out. Kaori, the day we met, when I collapsed was no coincidence. I'm dying. I don't know how long I have left but if I've collapsed again, I'll obviously be gone soon. Ever notice how I get breathless when we run? How I'm always wheezy and how I'd always say I get the flu in the spring? You're probably wondering why the hell I'm coughing up blood then. Kaori, I have Stage 4 Lung Cancer. It's slowly killing me. 

I don't want to be a burden. Please, if now is my time, listen to my last wish. Be happy. Seeing you as the person you're meant to be the past few weeks has brought me more joy than you will ever know. I don't want you there when I wake up. I don't want you to experience any more pain. Stay away from the back of that ambulance. I'm so sorry. I don't deserve you. I don't want you to hurt any longer. I'll always be in your heart.

I love you,
Kousei Arima"

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A/N: What about that for a revelation? I'm actually crying at my own work. Is that bad? Anyways, Part 2 of this tomorrow. This chapter is dedicated to RadNmad! Check out his book! It's amazing!