from now on i refuse to be a wallflower, the tail of the group, the overlooked figure . . . i will not make myself small. i will not stretch the speed of my walk only to match the pace of others. no longer a ghost lingering behind solid shoulders, someone who hates narrow sidewalks. i don't want to just sit with my fingers laced, waiting for others to hand me a verbal invitation or show deliberate signs of appreciation for my presence. either i make an effort to participate or i stay behind. either i enjoy myself with company or i sit in solitude.
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