you believe you are stuck, that things will stay dark forever, but we are clusters of stardust sailing through space. you are a source of light in this world. you carry so much inside you, the potential to grow and evolve to embody the ocean, love that you could spread outwards and dreams that beg you to never give up. you won't realise this right now, but listen. you don't need to have a purpose to live life. you don't need to always be happy, have perfect grades, look a certain way to fulfill anything. listen. it can get better. i am not going to promise anything, because in the end, you are the one who can make your feet move forward and give yourself the promise, that you can and will continue existing. challenge yourself to survive as long as possible. the veil of the night will lift from your vision and you will be cradled in all the love and beauty that still are upon this earth. one day. you cannot give up now, what are you sacrificing your heartbeats for? everything you have gone through already, is it meant to end like the way you're thinking of now? you are as strong as you convince yourself to be . . . i know that no matter your looks, past and insecurities, you are beautiful and worth a million stars.
emotions are raw. you are hurt. but if you can feel this much pain, you can also feel so much love too. you are not alone. we are all beings with glass shards in our heart and dreams that don't seem like much, but are still so far away. all wounds heal. you will heal. i know the sky is calling out to you but stay just a little longer. if you leave, everything, but at the same time nothing, will change. flowers will still grow. our planet will still rotate and the moon will stay porcelain and pull the oceans. but the people who loved you will shatter. you will be terribly, terribly missed but you won't even know it. you will stay in rustic memories and pictures and the words that have left your mouth. but it doesn't have to be like that. please stay. it will be worth it. think of all the places you haven't visited yet. all the animals you could play with. think of future goals becoming a reality and a new family and beautiful friends. all the movies and music and books you won't get to know if you go. the people you will meet and fall in love with. struggles and pain that will only make you stronger. you are born to matter. never tell yourself that you are not good enough. because you are.
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