1. sometimes you fall in love with the idea of someone, and not actually with the person. you fall for whom they seem to be on the surface. you glorify their personality without truly knowing who they are. that's okay. but enable yourself to distinguish the difference of really loving a person, and just loving the idea of a person, and how they make you feel.
2. true confidence is looking at yourself in the mirror and not caring about the way you look. you don't despise yourself, but you don't particularly love yourself either. you acknowledge your flaws and skills with equal interest. how you physically look does not matter to you any longer, and does not ruin nor heighten your self-image. you simply look at yourself as the way you are, with acceptance and gratitude.
3. it is okay to be hurt. to be vulnerable. to make mistakes. it is okay to care about what others say about you. you are not weak for being sensitive, or having strong feelings that you cannot control. you are a human. displaying your emotions, your vulnerability, only makes you human. with a heart that still beats, not yet turned to cold steel. besides, your weaknesses make you stronger in the end. it is okay to care. stay true to yourself; and allow yourself to have raw feelings and thoughts.
4. procrastinating gets you nowhere and you are only going to regret it later on, when it's too late. do it now. do not distract yourself, but plow through the work. sometimes you have to push yourself. be your own coach, and seize the opportunities you have.
5. things never turn out the way you expect them to. the path in front of you is obscured by fog, and only when you walk forward, and the future turns to the present, will everything be revealed. strange coincidences will happen and dreams will come true. you will lose some but gain more in the process. you will learn to see the world in different perspectives. every choice, every baby step, will determine which way your life is going. you choose your path. but at the same time, it twists and turns in unexpected ways.
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